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MOVED!

2009-10-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

GREETINGS DARLINGS!!

i'm moved to http://ladymarina89.wordpress.com

kindly relink me okay..;)

*loved!*

Happy Birthday MOM!!

2009-09-03T20:34:00.003+08:00

28th August 2009!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBU!;)

Had a makan session cum celebration cum Family Iftar @ MrTehTarik;)
The Capture Moments;)

*Mother and Daughters!!*

*Sisters!*

*I Still Had Milo Dinosaur after a Big Meal!!;)*

*Me & Y.Sis..(She was damn full lah!)*

*Me & B.Sis!*

*SISTER!!*

*Family Shot In The Lift!!*

20th Birthday Part 2!!

2009-08-23T01:11:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE~! (PART 2!)

Celebrated August Birthday! (Aishah & Me)
@ MOMC, Arab Street
It was a suprise birthday celebration..
THANK YOU HYRULITES!
Sayang Banget Sama Kamu Smua!

*Birthday Ladies!*

*Abg Long, Deela & ME!*

*Deela, ME & Sha!!*

*Sha,ME, Mamahani & CikMurni!!*

*THE BIRTHDAY LADIES!*

*Mamahani, Sha, Fiza & ME!*

*the girlfriends!*

*Birthday ladies with Mamahani!*

*Got SABOTAGED by them!!*

*Back Up Singers & Dancers!*

THANK YOU TO ALL!!!

Birthday part 1!

2009-08-23T00:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEE!!~(part 1)
Celebrated my birthday with FaceBook initially..
After 6pm, i was with my munchkins @ Singapore Flyers..
*BIG THANK U BABES!!!;) LOVE YOU LADIES*
After which, Celebrated my birthday with My BestFrien near my place..
*AWWwwW~! Super Sweet of You!!THANK YOU!!*
@ Home, Big Sis Bought Me Donut Factory!
*I LIKEEEEeeE~! Thank You kak!!;)*

*from Kak Ct!*

*From BestFriend!!=)*

*From Aishah & Shikin!!*

HERE ARE THE PICTURES @ Flyer!!;)

Bandung Continues...;)

2009-08-22T23:35:00.005+08:00

Back With More Pictures From Bandung Trip;)
*enjoyz!*

*While waiting for Remy..;)*

*we were happy Kiddos;)*

*Silat in Indon?*

*we had our late lunch plus early dinner...;)*

*@ our hotel..*

*walking into e lorongs...*

*Remy! Sha! Kin! Rina! with our hotel name!!*

*i love stopping them and ask then to pose..;)*

*Peace out babyy!*

*the ladies with Remy enterframe!*

*the time that everyone has been waiting for! bully Abg Long!*

*got kicked by big brother!*

*a harder kick!!*

*Random!!*

*Me & Sha in e plane!*

*Smiles for Singapore..;)*

*the flowers that we received..from a small rose..to fully bloomed roses!*

Bandung Trip Part 2!

2009-08-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

Bandung Trip Part 2!

Bandung trip part 1!

2009-08-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

Bandung Trip Part One!!=)

Final countdown..;)

2009-08-13T00:56:00.002+08:00

Its The Final Countdown To My Jakarta/Bandung Trip!

In afew hours time, i'll be leaving the country for my oversea trip with my suspects..;)
i'll be away for 5days and will be back by 17th August..just one day before my birthday;)*HINT!*
So, stay tuned for LOTS of pictures..=)

Now, going to get a short nap..

GOODNIGHT SINGAPORE!!;)

popular 2

2009-08-10T22:37:00.001+08:00

More POPULAR NIGHT Pictures..;)

Popular!!

2009-08-08T21:22:00.002+08:00

BE POPULAR!
a day that meant to be special;)
i shall not say much cause i dont really like to talk..
As u know, for me, a picture speaks a thousand words..
=)
**Plans for National Day: Yati's wedding & A Day @ Esplanade..;)**

!Counting down to my bandung trip!!5more days!!

Back With Updates!

2009-07-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

Back With Real Updates..

i know i have been feeling weird around my friends at work.. I'm being someone whom laugh and make people laugh.. Being someone very noisy at work even though i'm tired and sleepy.. The reason behind my actions and words in mainly because i have my problems that i need to hide from the rest of the world.. People usually say that its always best to ventilate and let your thoughts be heard by other so that they can help u in anyway that they can.. But for me, it totally depends on the situation that i'm facing.. with the current situation that i'm facing.. i cant bring myself to ventilate it out.. i know cause whatever that is happening could have been prevented.. but due to human mistakes, things happen at the time that we least expected it to be.. For now, i only know that i have to be stronger than who i am actually.. Like it or not, i have to.. i've got no choice.. So forgive me if i seem alittle bit of Emo these few weeks..

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Currently, i'm busy planning my holiday trip with my suspects.. JAKARTA!
The Initial planning started on the 20th June 2009 @ Starlites event.. Randomly and out of nowhere..we planned for a holiday trip.. It will be Izarr!Aishah!Zuraimi!Shikin!& Me!
Now, as the dates get closer.. The excitement gets highter..!!;) *cant wait!*

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July is coming to an end.. Beautiful August is up ahead..!
The Reason why i'm calling it beautiful August is because, i'm having alot of plans for august!!
This is roughly my plans..;)
1stAug- Out With Suspects..
2ndAug- KIV Leaders meet up..
7thAug- Hyrul's Performance @ NP
9thAug- Hyrul's Performance @ Esplanade OutDoor Theater
13thAug-17thAug- JAKARTA TRIP!
17th-23rdAug- MY ANNUAL LEAVE!!
18thAug- MY BIRTHDAY!!;)
19thAug- DayOut With Peeps..
22thAug- Fiza booked This Date..I dont know why..
28thAug- Moms Birthday!

Alot Of Plans Right??;)

2009-07-17T20:54:00.001+08:00

LOTS TO UPDATE BUT NO TIME!!!
BUSY BUSY!!;)

Pictures..

2009-07-09T19:21:00.003+08:00

Some Pictures that i've yet to upload..
*Anugerah Ep 6 & Random Shots @ Work...=)*

*Myza & ME!!*

*Comical Us..*

*New friend!Suriah!*

*Mamahani & ME!*

*MYZA & ME!!*

*MIZAA & ME!!*

*Angela!Dira!ME!*

Update babeyyy

2009-07-01T00:52:00.002+08:00

Been feeling up and down these few days.. *i swear i don't know why..*
but seriously, life is filled with unpredictable things.. we don't really know what and when and where things might happen..
all i know is that, we have to face up to it when that day comes..
a simple thing can get complicated if it is neglected and left hanging..
sometimes i wonder.."will things get better?" i could only wonder...

thats all i can say about my truest thoughts..

thoughts a-side.. feelings play a major part in my life.. and if you get into my black book, which only means one thing.."sorry darling..but be-gone!" i hate it whenever u pretend to be an angel infront of me..but at the back, you are a devil in disguise.. If you don't like it, then get lost.. you don't order me around as thought i don't know the things around.. and i hate it whenever i have to work with you ok..i never once like it!!

"its just....a little crushhhhhh"
how i wish you could stay longer.. ur smile itself is such an inspiration for me at the beginning of the day..whenever frustration runs in my bloodstream, ur smile just grab hold of me and pull me back together with a smile.. tell me how am i suppose to get another smile like your? i don't think i'll ever get that smile from anyone else...
*i want nobody nobody but you...(clap clap)*

Great Way To Start The Busy Week!
Met up with Hamyza Dearest @ Bugis on Monday.. Watch Movie! TRANSFORMER! and a mini and short shopping was done.. Though it was short, i swear it was filled with lots of fun and joy.. i didn't know we had so much of things in common..*cool or wad!~* anyways, i'm looking forward to meet up with her again someday!!;)

Breeks.!

2009-06-28T22:32:00.004+08:00

DiNnEr @ BrEekS, MariNa SquArE..
*260609*
Met Up With SHIKIN!FIZA!ZURAIMI!
Its was a Dinner plus Chilling Session ON ME;)
I shall not do the talking..
Let the pictures tell the story;)
More Pics @ FACEBOOK;)

New Babies;)

2009-06-26T00:46:00.001+08:00

My New Babies Of The Month;)

**New PURPLE heels;)**

**LONG AWAITED HardDrive;)**

StarLites 09'

2009-06-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

STARLITES 2009 came and left..
I shall not talk about it as i dont have much to say..
except for...

A Big Thank You To All Those Who Came For The Event..
Like What Fiza Said In Her Closing Speech,
"Without You Audience, The Event Would Not Have Happen.."

A Round Of Applause For All The Contestants Who Took Part In The Competition..
Thank You For Taking Time To Take Part In The Competition.. Without Participants, The Event Would Not Have Happen Either..To The Top 5, CONGRATULATION..

A Special Thanks To HYRUL ANUAR..
For Taking Time Despite Your Busy Schedule To Do The Opening For The Event.. And Thank You For "Popular"

And Last But Not Least,
KUDOS TO THE EXCO & ADVISORS!
A Job Well Done! *CLAP3!*
Thank You For Spending Much Time And Effort In Making The Event A Successful One.. After Many Meetings, I Know The Effort You Guys Put In Has Paid Off..
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**Hamyza & ME!!**
#a new friend!!;)

**Azmir & ME!!**
#my distant cousin..

**AISHAH & ME!!**
#My Bestest Sister Around;)

**MY BABY GIRL!!**

2009-06-15T20:45:00.003+08:00

I found my motivation for morning shifts!!

*A* became the reason for me to smile and get my work done faster..

i don't know..but with *A* around, i felt much more happier and motivated to finish my work way before hand..;)

PS:: Top Secret!;)

ONE LOVE!!

2009-06-12T10:40:00.001+08:00

Singapore Flyer During Familys' Day..

*Hear.Speak.See. No Evil*
((The Triplets!!))

**ME & My Abg!!=)**

**Our Shot In Our Cabin!**

**ONELOVE FIRST SHOT!!**

SICK!!

2009-06-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

Monday Blues Anyone?
For me, i'm totally blue!
i fell sick as my mood was uncertain..
Got even sicker..
FOOD POISONING!!!
i'm still very sick as i am updating my blog..
But what to do? Just tahan the pain..*tsk3*
I received an injection!! IM!! *Arghhhh!*
Anyways, randomly editted the pics of the Friends that I LOVE;)
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Happy Sunday!

2009-06-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY SUNDAY!!;)

#1:: great day @ work..;)

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#2..HAPPY ADVANCE CELEBRATION FOR SHIKIN DEAR @ SEMBAWANG PARK!!

quick update!

2009-06-04T23:45:00.003+08:00

BUSY WITH MEET UPS;)
##1..Had a meet up with Izarr & Illa last week..
had a movie session @ vivocity..*terminator salvation*
Chilling session @ Marina Square Starbucks..
PS:more pics @ FB
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##2..Had a meet up session with KakEzah today..
relax @ marina barrage..
lunch @ marina square LJS
chilling session @ TCC, boat Quay..
PS::more pics @ FB
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***KakEzah & ME!**

**MEEeeeeeeee!!!!!!!**

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**ME & Izar!!**

**ME & Illa!!!**

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Lovely Saturday!

2009-05-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

LOVELY SATURDAY;)
1## 1LOVE COUSINS day out to Singapore Flyers=)
**Pics right ahead...;)**
2##Leaders Love gathering @ JP, delifrance=)
**pics to be uploaded another day...**

baby love!

2009-05-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

New Baby Love Of Mine;)

**Loving Red & Black;)**

**BabyCinta..;)**

countdown!!

2009-05-21T21:05:00.002+08:00

TGIT!!
*thank god its thursday!*
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today is the day that i've been waiting for..
Friday & Saturday OFF DUTY!;)
Sunday Morning..
After which Monday to Thursday NIGHT DUTY!!
Friday To Sunday OFF DUTY!!
and trust me...i'm all pre-occupied and have plans!!
Me Myself and I day! 29/05/09
Meeting my SL darlings on Saturday, 30/05/09
Meeting My darlings on Sunday 31/05/09
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Half of the time, i dont really understand why it happens..
I dont expect perfection but..i didnt expect things to a down around..
I know its hard to face up to reality when reality comes knocking at your door..
*tsk tsk tsk* will anyone be able to understand me ever?
i wonder...
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ECG day 1

2009-05-18T20:55:00.002+08:00

ECG COURSE *18/5/09-19/5/09*
Day 1 Of The Course..
As usual, i was an early bird..
So while waiting, i took random shots of me waiting..
*huahahaa*
So anyways, ECG course was kind of complicated for me..
As we actually need to know how to interpret an ECG..
*yiaks!* like hello!!!
Do i really need to know how to read an ecg?
all i know is whether it was a normal or abnormal ecg..
i dont need to know how much is the heart rate..
how fast is the heart pumping etc...
HUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Anyways,
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GdLuck & All the best to Abg Izarr!! 12days of reservist..;)
hehehee...TAKECARE!!

StarLites;)

2009-05-17T15:21:00.001+08:00

Interested in Singing?
Thinking of showing your talent?
Join Us @ Hyrulites Event; STARLITES :D

Video Marathon...;)

2009-05-17T15:07:00.002+08:00

Video Marathon @ Mamahani's CRIB yesterday;) *16/5/09*
*thanks!*
Work was tragic and painful for me on Saturday..
As the day starts, my body wasn't feeling well at all..
i felt weak and sick..
Thankfully there was enough staff to help out..
I slowly forced myself to continue working..
Knowing at the back of my mind, i'll be meeting my lovely people after work..
So i persevere to look forward till the end of shift..
Met up with the Exco in the train towards Hougang..
When we reach her CRIB, it was a cosy feeling..
You can feel the wind blowing from all the different direction..
And for the rest of them would have known, i was the most sleepy one around..
With the wind blowing directly at me..
I dose off afew times while watching the videos..*Oops!*
But it was great;) THANK YOU!!;)
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Sometimes i wonder why things are happening the way it is happening..
I never once thought that i'll be facing the situation that i am facing right now..
Opening up to someone and talk about all these aint that easy as it seems..
I honestly want to let my feelings out and express my thought..
But..am i strong enough to talk it out and not break down?
I dont think so.. knowing myself, i'll sure break down..
Its not easy hiding the feelings that i have in me right now..
and did you know that i am terrified deep withing..
Give me time and give me space..I hope i'll be able to get over it..

;)

2009-05-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

UNEXPECTED! UNINTENTIONAL! UNPLANNED!

Initial plan was to take a bus and ride around Singapore..
But as the journey continues, main priority was to drop something somewhere.. So first thought was VIVOCITY..

As we were reaching vivo,we saw the CABLECARS and thought of seeing how much it cost after droping the thing..

So after what we needed to check, we decided to WALK..

First thought was HENDERSON WAVE..
From There...

MARANG TRAIL!
MOUNT FABER!
HENDERSON WAVE!
HILLTOP WALK!
FOREST WALK!
ALEXANDRA ARCH!
HORTPARK!

We managed to walk from one end to another within 1hour and a half?somewhere there...

;) THANKS ;)

Situation!

2009-05-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

Struck with many different situation..
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As the days goes by, fear runs through my blood stream..
Living life as though things may disappear suddenly..
I never once though that things will end up the way it is..
I know that i have many people whom i can talk to about this situation..
But having the courage to talk things out is something which i'm not good at actually..
Honestly, i'm the type of person who doesnt speak whats on my mind always..
And at the current situation that i am in,i'm scared..
Being my type of person,and with my personality, its hard for something to bring me down..
But this very situation, brought me all the way down..
I once thought that things will never get this bad..
But they always say "expect the unexpected.." & "life is unpredictable..."
Seriously speaking, i never felt so scared in my entire life before..
But i do hope that i'll become a stronger person once this situation has settle..

**god...please give me the strength to fight the situation and face the challenges that i face...**

Update;)

2009-05-07T19:31:00.002+08:00

In life, we cant really depend on others when we are in need of help..

We have to depend on yourself no matter how hard the situation is..

TRUST! is more than just a 5 letter word..

Its takes alot before someone can actually trust another person..

*am i not right?*

Well, who do i trust and who do i not trust?

Thats for me to know and for you to find out..

If you know that i trust you, treasure it..

if you know i don't trust you, just accept it alrights..

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Missing My Lovely 1Love Cousins!

Missing My Lovely Usual Suspects.!

Girlfriends!

2009-05-05T15:56:00.002+08:00

Girlfriends Day Out!!;)

*more pics @ fb..=)

2009-05-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

2009-05-01T19:45:00.001+08:00

Current Colour Code: ORANGE!
*Virus becoming increasingly better adapted to humans but may not yet be fully transmissible, requiring close contact with an index case. Larger clusters appear in one or two places outside Singapore but a pandemic has not yet been declared. *
*Phase 5 is characterized by human-to-human spread of the virus into at least two countries in one WHO region. While most countries will not be affected at this stage, the declaration of Phase 5 is a strong signal that a pandemic is imminent and that the time to finalize the organization, communication, and implementation of the planned mitigation measures is short.*

As many or should i say all of you would have known, Singapore is currently in the Orange Zone. Thankfully, there isn't any confirm cases yet in Singapore. Currently, out of 22, 19 are negative.. but lets all not be too happy alright? Anything and i mean anything can happen within seconds/minutes/hours.. If many of you would have known, the colour code has been moved up quickly.. From Green to yellow and now to orange.. As a healthcare professional, i pray hard that it doesnt move up to red cause if it does, black will come it sooner or later..

Everyday, coming to work now is worrying.. worried about the current situations in the country and in the hospital.. With the current situation, i seriously miss schooling days which we could really enjoy your public holidays, your sat & suns and your holiday weeks.. how i wish i could enjoy a long break.. without worrying about work at the back of my mind.. everyday, i wonder..how long will this last?i pray it wun't stay for long..

*praying for everyones' safety...*

--everytime i close my eyes, i think of the current situation...--

IRRITATING!

2009-04-21T18:33:00.002+08:00

This post is a special shout out to the irritating person who leaves many tags at my tag board but doesn't leave the name behind.

*congrats! its hard for me to dedicate a whole post for a single person you know.
So, be honoured!*

You can leave as many tags as u want.
I don't care. You can write, i can delete.
You called me a bitch? So what.
I am a bitch. Does that bother you or has an impact to you?
No Right?!
FYI, i've been coming back to the CCA since 2006..
Its my problem whether i want to go OTC or not..
Does it affects you if i am an officer o not?
FYI, the CCA has many officers who are not OTC trained..
Anyways, i really find u interesting you know..
You have every gut to speak to me..
But you don't have any guts to leave you name behind..
Wait! unless, you are nameless or you hate ur name?
I pity you.. I bet you have name right?but you are not proud of your name?
Gd News for you whoever you are..
i wouldn't be coming back to the cca anymore..
So, do a bbq to celebrate!
I'm sure you are more than happy not to see me around anymore am i not right?
i couldn't be bothered to come back to help anymore cause my juniors have passed out..
Do whatever you want. Lead them the way you want.
I couldn't be bothered anymore..
HAVE FUN!!
And oh..before i forget, leave me your name*if you have one?*,
so that i can congratulate you in public for ur future successes*if there is any*

2009-04-20T18:43:00.001+08:00

Honestly, i dont know where to begin..

I really wonder how to start a fresh..

I want to talk to someone about it..

But it hurts whenever i try to think of it..

*troubled..*

Birthday @ Airport;)

2009-04-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

2009-04-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

*Stop bossing around and ordering people..*

Anger runs through my blood and frustration is written all over my forehead..

Be thankful that i only raised my voice at you and i didnt shout at you..

Make me angry and you'll get it from me..

PISS!!

2009-04-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

Its time to blog and speak my mind..
*PS:take it or leave it aites!like it or not,its my blog..!*

I'm sorry to say that you made me piss with you.
It was outrageous and disrespectful.
i dont give a damn who and what you are.
if i could throw my 5fingers at your stupid face, i will.
but somehow, i pity u. know why?cause i'm just showing some respect.
something that you didnt get or had am i right? 
well, dont blame anyone.
blame yourself and your freaking attitude.
anyway, i wish u GDLUCK!for the rest of the years.
if it fails, too bad for u and gd for me. coz i did my past in the past.
i dont care. i wun care anymore.
be gd and do well. *evil laughter!*
call me a attitude if u want. but thats how i am. i can be nice and i can be evil.
mess with shit, and you'll get shit from me. and i mean it aites.
i'm not gonna say anymore cause i'll be burning my own blood if i do.
you can say what u want to say. do what you want to do.
by all means, i wun stop you or disturb you.
and oh!did i mention that that thanks to you, they are where they are because of you.
my time is done and i'm more that happy to get it over and done with.
egoistic and arrogant. that is what you people are.
you dont boss around and order people when you are not doing as well as others.
i see no right for how u react when others look down on you.
when people say something to you, you show face.
instead of accpeting the pointers and making effort to change, you showed attitude.
and is this how u expect people to respect you and work with you?
will you like it if i did that to you? showing you attitude and pissing you off..
will you like it? no right! SO?! what's your problem?
BE GONE!!! 

Thank You!!

2009-04-12T13:54:00.003+08:00

Celebrated two special events these two days..
1)Happy Birthday Dad!
2)Happy Anniversary mom&dad;)

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For my parents anniversary, i made an order with my bii(SVCreationz)..
It was a marble cake made by SVCreationz..;)
Here's a short review from me and family...=)
// Sedap!! Very soft and tender.. Delicious..;) //
..Usually, if we just remove it from the fridge, the cake will still be hard..
But for this cake, it was soft still..and it tasted as though it just came out from the oven..
the tenderness of the cake is felt when it melts in the mouth..
a cake that me and my family will remember and will order for the future family events..;)
**thanks SV bii..;)love ya!!**

GdFriday;)

2009-04-11T17:23:00.003+08:00

GOOD FRIDAY;)
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Lovely people

2009-04-06T13:24:00.002+08:00

A day out with my lovely people...!;)
*missing:LianaLove&AishahDear*
It was suppose to a day @ henderson wave..
But sadly, the weather wasnt on our side..
so, it was just a picnic @ skypark..hehee...;)
**awak awak....hehee...**

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2009-04-03T15:34:00.002+08:00

A Short but Sweet meet Up with My Loved Ones;)
*Izarr & Aishah!*
@ DownTownEast- Changi Airport..;)

BBQ @ Caribbean keppel bay

2009-03-28T13:11:00.005+08:00

BBQ @ CARIBBEAN KEPPEL BAY, 27th March 2009
*Here's some pics of the day;)*

Updates....!

2009-03-26T20:33:00.003+08:00

#1..
I never once expected things to be the way it is right now.. Whenever i ask, it doesn't mean that i am being a busy body and poking my nose into everything and anything.. I asked cause i am being concern.. I asked cause the matter includes me.. I just want things to get better.. But instead of giving me support, it brought me disappointment and fear.. I couldn't ventilate or voice out to anyone about the actual matter.. It kills me deep withing actually..

#2
Honestly speaking, it felt much much better after the session.. The weight that was in my heart is finally gone.. I know myself best and trust me, i don't really have many closure with my friends.. But i'm glad things are much better now..and i know u know that we know that we will have many more beautiful chapters ahead..;) Love ya!

#3
work load has been pretty heavy nowadays.. There was once in point of time that i felt like breaking down cause the work is just to much.. I can say that its not mainly the work.. its the expectation is heavy.. how much longer can i last? God knows.. It all depends on who is the team of the day rights;)

**Meeting my SJbabies tomorrow and having BBQ after that with my colleagues...;)**
***Meeting usual suspects on Saturday..;)***

2009-03-15T14:13:00.004+08:00

EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN

2009-03-13T02:30:00.002+08:00

EMOTIONAL DESTRESS on the run!!

Honestly speaking, this week has been a week full of suprises that arent that pleasant actually.. I never felt so down in my entire life before..I didnt expect things to happen the way it is right now.. For those who know what i am referring to, ShhhHh..its between u and me.. Its hard facing so many tragedy in 4days... All these while i've always been strong that i thought.. but after these few tragedy, i can to realise that i am weak deep within actually.. For the first time in my life, i had an emotional breakdown for 3whole hours..

At that point of time, i wish i had someone who i could voice out my problems and feelings that is deep within me.. But apparently, i cant.. Only God knows whats running in my mind and heart..

I do not know know long i can stand strong as i am now..I may get weak and just give up on things..Cause honestly, i'm emotionally tired now..
Forgive me for being so negative, but it is the fact..i dont know how much longer i can last standing in the situation i am in..

I do not expect people to understand me fully.. neither do i expect anything from anyone.. All i wish for is a listening ear when i am in need of one..

**Life! full of suprises and unexpected things...~falling apart~**

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2009-03-08T18:57:00.002+08:00

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Starting my night duty tomorrow again..
But this time round, it'll be 4 nights..
i know and i confirm will be tired and be dead tired..
sigh!!
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Mon!

2009-03-05T20:18:00.003+08:00

Met Up with My Usual Suspects on Mon..
Met Up With Liana Love & Sadiq @ JE..
Venue Of The Day:: WOODLANDS CAUSEWAY POINT;)
Peeps Involved: ME!Liana!Shikin!Sadiq!Izarr!Fiza!
*peeps missing: Sha!Olie!Wawan!*

happy birthday sadiq!

2009-03-02T11:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to OUR DEAR SADIQ!!=)
Surprise Surprise!!;)

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PSST::I simply do not understand you..trying to be someone you are not..
Find your own reasons as an excuse..

Rewang2 Kpak Bing2..

2009-02-24T19:10:00.008+08:00

Sunday was GREAT!!
*nearly perfect except for...*
Lets just say that the day was filled with Sun and Rain..
met up with fiza @ boonlay 9am..
met up with aishah @ jurong east ..
me,fiza and sha reached ECP the earliest around 10plus in the morning..
sadly, none of the hyrulites were there with us..
one by one, hyrulites came..
but the weather was changing constantly too..
one moment it was sunny, the other was rainy..
HYRULS PERFORMANCE?
was SUPERB!!i simply LOVE his performance on stage..
after the event ended, we headed off for dinner @ marine parade..
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##loved!##
##Olie&ME!!##
##LIANA LOVE!!##
##LIANA!!##
##IZARR##
##HYRUL!!##

##CIK SHIDAH!!##
##CIK MURNI!!##
##OLIE LIANA & ME!!##

##HYRUL LIANA & ME##

MY leave!!

2009-02-19T22:09:00.004+08:00

MY LEAVE WEEK!!=)

Summarise what i've been up to alrights..;)

Monday was SUPERB with CikMurni,CikAhmad&Izarr..

Tuesday was plain Boring @ Home..=P

Wednesday was GREAT with Firdous @ MarinaBarrage,CityHall,ClarkeQuey,FortCanning..

Thursday?Was My Saddess day EVER!!

*know why?i'm suppose to be in BANGKOK now with my cousins..=( but sadly, my tix was cancelled due to some family disagreement..So instead, i send off my cousins just now at the airport..SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

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WEDNESDAY PICS!!=)

Monday was great..=)

2009-02-17T19:33:00.003+08:00

Monday Was GREAT!!
Went out with CikMurni & Izarr=)

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monday blues was taken aside and we let monday rock!=)
met my loved ones and headed off..
besides the traffic jam, everything else was great;)
thank you izarr=)
thank you cik murni=)
thank you cik ahmad=)
LET THE PICTURE DO THE TALKING..=)
MORE @ FACEBOOK!!
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NOTHING PLANNED FOR TODAY..=(*Sadden!*
Nevertheless, Tomorrow will be another day of great moments..=)

moving ON!!

2009-02-15T20:54:00.002+08:00

Say Good Bye To The Feelings I had For You...

Seeing all those hurts me like a knife stabbing the heart..
I know i have no right to be feeling that way..
But,i'm sorry..Its just ME..
Your actions remind me of my Ex..*hurt!*
But..Whatever alrights...
I told myself that i'm moving on with my life just the way before u entered mine..
i never knew it will hurt this much, but its too late to regret right?
So for now, moving on with life and pretending that u never existed in my life..
you were just a friend then and now...
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TGIS!!
*thank god its sunday!!*
Know why??
I'm On my ONE WEEK ANNUAL LEAVE!!~whee!!
Monday to Sunday..Its my LEAVE DAY...=)
My Plans??

Monday--Meeting CikMurni & Abg Izarr..=)
Tues--??????
Wed--Meeting Firdous for Camwhore Session @ HortPark & Hendeson Waves plus harbour front
thurs--Sending My oneLove cousins to Airport
Fri--?????
Sat--Meeting My LeadersLove for a gathering..
Sun--Hyrulites Day...

*soooOooo,anything, beep me...;)

Post Night Duty

2009-02-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

A Rough Night It Was...
Proudly to say that i just ended my night rounds..
and i must say that its my WORSE night round ever..
i have never been through such a rough night in these 1 year before..
my 1st night was OK..but not a smooth one..
my 2nd night was..F*#^!!
It was so Tiring and Very Tiring... Irritating people..
Itchy hands.. Irritating processes..
It was purely IRRITATING!!!
my 3rd & last night is Not So Bad Lah...=P
still Ok..=P
having my sleeping day today and rest day tomorrow..
Sat & Sun working..
Monday Onwards, I'M ON LEAVE for 1WHOLE WEEK!!!*yeah!!*
Sadly, i'm suppose to go Bangkok with my cousins..
But i have to cancel it due to my parents worry..
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I Thinking I'm Giving Up..?
I fell in love with the crush..
But after some time,i think, is it better that i gave up..
Loving u in silence was never easy..
I admit that i was jealous at times..
I know i dont have any rights to be feeling jealous or anything..
But..thats just me..
Honestly, till now, i dont know what to do..
My CLOSE FRIENDS told me that i shd take things slow and everything..
i will take things slow of cause..
But i think...............
i dont know.......

**what shd i do??**

UPDATE!!

2009-02-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

UPDATES ARE BACK BAYBEYY...=))

##1---went out with the USUAL SUSPECT to Marina..!!=))

din camwhore that much as at the back of my mind was work work and work..

Loving them even more each day!!=)

##2---Went Out with Sha,Liana&Olie To AMK!!

had our dinner..=)and was clueless where to go..

Olie suggested that we went to Mcd Drive-In..

We camwhore,ate and only left at 10pm..=))

olie send us off at AMK mrt even thou he stayed very near by...=)

##3---PERSONAL LIFE UPDATE(Work,Anger,Frustration)

I dont expect you to understand me or the way i am..

i only want you to accept the reality around you..

what makes you think u are truly accepted by others when others are actually trying their best to survive behind you..

i dont understand why you are pretending to be someone whom u are not?it doesnt mean you have to be someone just to be in the same state as others right?

esp when we are at work..i expect you to be professional..

you are expected to be better than me given ur experience and status..

but instead,u gave me a different preception..

its hard for me to remain calm and act as though nothing happened at work..

i can be nice to you like how i am with others..

but..please..be thoughtful abit can?

instead,here i am guiding u and correcting ur mistakes..

*u are suppose to be guiding me..not the other way round..*

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PS: 1LOVE COUSINS..!!!!I'M MISSING YOU PEOPLE!!!!

USUAL SUSPECTS..!!!!!I MISS THE HANG OUTS!!!!!

Morning Breakfast

2009-01-30T00:32:00.006+08:00

Morning Breakfast AnyOne?

met up with the usual suspects*liana.wawan.izarr.kin* @ Jurong Point

**Wawan was from Camp..Izarr,Liana&Kin was from Home..ME?was from NightDuty**

we decided to head to McDonalds..

and as usual, the day is never complete without taking pictures..

So..Here they are..!!=)

with siter CT

2009-01-28T18:05:00.005+08:00

CamWhore with my Sister..CT!!

Usual Peeps!!

2009-01-28T05:04:00.004+08:00

USUAL SUSPECTS!!

Met up with my usual suspect this afternoon(270109) @ Woodlands C.C...=)

fisrt spot: Starbucks! had my Oreo-Cheeseeeee cake*drool* & Chocolate chip..=)

second spot: McDonalds..=) had McChicken if i rmb..=P

Peeps I Met:WawaN!Liana!Fiza!Izarr!Aishah!Sadiq!

*Olie couldnt join us...*

*Actually,i din want to go..but LianaLove made me come..thanks love!*

So..Here are some pics that we took..

And trust me..we cam-whore like nobody's business...=p!!!

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Shall upload my ECP pics with 1LOVE soon!!

injured!!

2009-01-26T00:10:00.002+08:00

....lets just say...

that i'm ultra angry with someone..

Bitch!!u dun go around scolding me for the things that i've not done..

FYI,i didnt do anything wrong..i was simply asking u a question and u raise ur voice at me? who the hell do u think u are?!scolding me as and when u like..just because u had a bad day or something happened, it does not give u any right to scold me or get frustrated with me? be thankful that i'm helping u..cause if not,i dun think u'll be ok..

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INJURED BACK

thats my injury for the month..i injured my back!*yiaks!*

as i'm typing,my back is hurting..

injured my poor back at work and gosh!!its hurts like crazy!!

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The Usual Suspect!!

2009-01-24T23:43:00.007+08:00

Here are the Picture Taken with

ThE UsuaL SusPecTS!!

Random...=P

2009-01-21T14:40:00.002+08:00

Things will never be the same again..

i once thought that i dun need to have doubt on you..

but now, things are different...

u'll forever still be my friend..but now,i'll hv my doubt when it comes to u..

i'm sorry for making things the way it is..

but i left with no choice but to take this one step..

forgive me for treating u this way..

but,u made me take this step..

My type of person,i treat all my friends with respect,trust&love..

once broken,considered sold..*sorry*

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Meeting my PerrFect Loved ones later @ woodlands..=)

Missing them lots already even though just met them on sunday..

loving them even more as the days goes by...=)

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as the days goes by, my feeling towards u grew..

missing u as the time flies by..

wishing to be able to meet u in person once again..

seeing that smile on ur face..

how i wish i could tell u how much i miss you...

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Unsure!!

2009-01-20T15:58:00.002+08:00

UNSURE..

that is the feeling thats in me right now..

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last few events in JANUARY 2009

21stJan--MeetUp with Aishah,Izarr,Liana&CikMurni=))

26thJan--1LOVE Cousins Get Together cum CNY!!=))

30thJan--Ward Meeting=P

31stJan--Hyrulites Games Day...=))

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Missing You Already...

Training...!

2009-01-19T19:12:00.002+08:00

Had P.I. training today @ connection one..

at first i thought that it'll be the typical training where it'll be boring etc...

but hey..i din expect the training to be a great and fun one..

i made new friends..!!hahaa!!

they are nice people i must say...=)

learnt alot of new things=)!!

*clapclap* for ME!! coz i never sleep during class..!!*HAHA!!*

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its hard though..loving u in silence is....

i dun noe... i honestly dun noe what to do..

i wish i could tell u how much i love you..

but i know i cant..

if only u knew how much i love u..

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.....

2009-01-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

*FRUSTRATION & PISSED OFF!!*

i din expect things to the way it was today..

i swear to god i din saw this coming..

forgive me for being emotional just now..

but,i was just upset..

*THANKS TO LIANA,AISHAH & IZARR!!!for talking to me and made me smile once again.. i seriously dun noe what will happen without the 3 of u...*loved!*

***

stupidy!! i accidentally spilled ice lemon tea and landed on my jeans..!!=P

so paisey!!

end up i have to change to my uniform..

and borrowed shah's sweater..*thanks babe!*

***

A BIG THANKS TO:

CIK MURNI,CIK AHMAD,WAWAN,

OLIE,LIANA,AISHAH,IZARR,

FIZA,FY,SADIQ,SHASHA,ILLA,INSYI&YATI

random..!!

2009-01-16T19:53:00.002+08:00

Frustration was running through my blood stream at work today..
anger was written all over my forehead..
i nearly scream at the top of my lungs at work..
i was so angry with my colleague..
*IRRITATED!!!!*
GOSH!!the rest of my colleague could tell that i was frustrated..
i never felt so angry before at work..*FIRST TIME!!!*
aahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Missing PERRFECT & 1LOVE COUSINS!!!

..Random thoughts...

2009-01-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

I once thought that everything will be alright..

But i thought wrong..

thinngs can just go right or wrong depending on the situation..

*am i not right to say that?*

we can always plan how and what will happen..

but whether it'll happen the way we want it to be, its not up to us..

its all up to HIM to decide..

i once wished that life will get better for me..

and thank God*alhamdullillah*..

My days with my family,cousins,friends & work life is getting better..

*THANK U GOD!*

For now,i leave everything up to HIM to decide for me..

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Plans Ahead::?

18th Jan: Hyrulites Gathering @ ECP

26th Jan: 1LOVE Gathering @ ECP

Birthday//PerrFect//after ND

2009-01-12T18:14:00.002+08:00

UPDATES..=))!!

#1--Happy 19th Birthday Fiza Dear..=)

*sorry for the late blog entry..*

Anyways,

hope that ur bday was a blast=)

may God bless u always..=)

Stay Happy always babe..!!=)

#2--PerrFect Friends!!
*Liana/Wawan/SV
Olie/Aishah/Izarr
Fiza/Shikin*
//They are loved!!//

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Back from Nite Duty!!
Finally!!~whee!!
anyway, nite duty this time round wasnt so bad..it was great actually..
not very busy..=) It was great working with the peeps..=))
but apparently,i think i might be having another Nite Duty before my AL..=(
anyways,i'm missing my 1LOVE COUSIN!!& PerrFect Friends!!
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.....

2009-01-07T18:10:00.001+08:00

I need to talk to someone..But WHO?

i want to let it all out..But WHOM?

I want to speak my mind...But to WHO?

i wish..how i wishh...

Birthday POST!!

2009-01-07T17:55:00.002+08:00

Birthday Shout Out!!

*#1 Liana Love!!

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY LOVE!!

May you 20th birthday be filled with lots of happiness & joy=)

insyaAllah Allah will bless you with His Love and protect you always..

LOVE YA ALWAYS LOVE!!=))

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABG MAMAL!!

May your Birthday be filled with love,happiness & joy!!

have a great future in the years to come abg=)

Miss Ya Abang..

May Allah Bless You Always!!

LOVE YA ABG!!

KNITE!!

2009-01-05T16:20:00.004+08:00

K Nite @ MEdiaCorp!!

*Hyrul & Ina*

*Wawan & Ina=)*

*Wawan & Ina again!=)*
*Wani & Ina*

*SV & Ina*

*Aishah & Rina*

*Liana & Ina*

*Ina & Mr Tak Tahu*

*Ina,Wani & Aishah*

*US Again*

*Wani,Insyi & Ina*

*Us with Fauzie*

*HYRULITES!!!*

NewYear Pics!

2009-01-05T15:33:00.005+08:00

NEW YEAR PICS/ COuntDown!

1st post in 2009!

2009-01-02T19:20:00.001+08:00

Farewell 2008..Welcome 2009!

Bitter and sweet,happy and sad,anger and frustration,ups and down.. All the memories in 2008 are memoriable..I've been through so much in 2008.. I faced the starting point of being a working adult.. I've met many new friendship in 2008.. I've also met people who can be a pain to me and the surroundings..

A summary of 2008?

A year that is filled with a whole lot of mixture of feelings..

HURT was the deepest.. I once thought that i finally found the right one..but i realise,i was blinded by love.. being hurt the way i was treated, it really hurt me deep.. Personally for me,if i love someone special, i treasure every moment we had..and i swear i'll love you with my heart,mind and soul.. But i guess he wasnt the right one? Now,i'm living life with the love from friends,family & cousins..

HAPPINESS was my priority..=) i took smiles and happiness as the key factor in my life.. the smiles were the ones who brighten up my days..=)

Anger & Frustration slip through my days..

A NEW BEGINNING..

*a start of something new...*

I believe that at the start of a new year,i will set my new year revolutions..and i've come up with mine..=)have you?;)

1) Do well in my career and profession *nurse*

2) Continue "Smile" in my future days in 2009

3) Creating a greater bond with my Hyrulites Loved! *Fiza~Liana~Aishah~SV~Izarr~Wawan~Olie*

4) Start planning for my driving license..~whee!

5) Opening the doors to my heart once again..

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HELLO 2009!!

*HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!*

2008 ended with beautiful memories from PerrFect hyrulites and 2009 memories began with the PerrFect Hyrulites..=)*Fiza/Liana/Aishah/Izarr/Wawan/Olie*

CountDown with Hyrulites and rocking the night with Black & White!

We blew balloons and pop it at 0000hrs..*new year!*

After which,we waited for Hyrul for phototaking.. In the mid of taking picture,we were deciding of where to head after midnight..We then decided to head to AA to eat=) The PerrFect Hyrulites walked through the dark path and camwhore at the same time..Speaking random topics and etc..By the time we reached the place,we were all very tired and hungry..and we realised something..Izarr,Hyrul&Alex were still on the way there..and in the car... *sigh..*

After deciding where to sit,we were half way deciding what to eat when something happened.. haha!!Me & Liana rushed over to the situation..after which,i realise that Wawan & Olie were behind us..It took us some time before it was more calm & settled.. *THANKS WAWAN & OLIE for the help..=)*

Dinner cum Supper cum super early breakfast took place and everyone ate..Well, we ate afew bites..All of us didnt manage to finish pur food..Except Wawan..!!Wawan finished his food=) After dinner..DRAMA took place..LOL!!PerrFect Hyrulites,U know I Know;)

SooOooo..after that,we walked and walked not knowing where to head..after walking for a long time,we realise..Oops!we were at Cik's void deck..we sat there and just talked while waiting for her..

At Cik's Place...........

We didnt sleep all morning..We were partically wide awake till 7am??8am?? after that..1 by one knocked out..had a quick breakfast and back to LaLa Land..Woke up around 11plus.. watched TV and one by one knocked out and entered Lala Land again..Woke up around 2plus? wanted to watch movie..entered the studio..and once again we knocked out and back to Lala Land.. woke up around 4plus5 and freshen up for dinner..While waiting for everyone to be ready..One by One,our eyes became smaller..*sleeppppppyyyyy* After which, DINNER,here we come!!

**Can you imagine how many times we woke up and sleep in that one day??LOL!!**

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A Crush?? Oops!!

i have to admit something here.. I think.. I am having a crush on someone.. *yiaks!!*

i don't know why..but my heart just starts to beat fast when i see him..

its the feeling of having a crush on someone..

but,shd i follow this feeling or shd i take control of my feelings??

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!*blushinnnggg!*

i dont know....=P

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Pics to be uploaded on another day!

Happy Moments!

2008-12-30T16:59:00.008+08:00

*missing pahang moments still*

Ytr was suppose to at my ward party..but trash! i didnt go..maybe because i was simply lazy!!*lol!

so anyways,i was at the tearoom when fiza called and said got last minute recording @ Mediacorp..so i decided to go..=))and i totally rush to get ready at home..=P

so i thought i will be last..but i wasnt..heehee..;)

the show started fom 8pm and ended at 11.52pm?

and SUCK!!we were split up sey.!!and damn it!! my face will be on TV at one of the episode..so..dun ask!!LOL!!

after which..camwhore time!!

*Hyrul & ME*

*After a long wait..*

*Girlfriends with HYRUL*

*SV Bii & ME*
*GIRLFRIENDS!*

Memory LanePahang

2008-12-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

Hey readers!!=)

Here are some pictures with caption of my Pahang Trip With Hyrulites=))

Enjoys!!;)

*My GirlFriends!!*

(from the left Fiza,Shikin,Me,Aishah,Liana&Aishah)

*Fiza,Shikin&ME!*

*Fiza,Aishah&ME!*

*Us Again..=)*

*Illa,ME&Aishah!*

*The Owls Of the Nite..=)*

*The Morning Faces!=)*

*The Youth of the trip!=)*

[We rock!]

*A Group Shot with Our Bus!*

***REACHED PAHANG!!***

**Our Nice & Neat BedRoom!**

**While watching Hindustan Movie..**

[Me & Shikin!]

*Olie,Sadiq & ME!!*

[Watching Hindustan in the Ladies Room..]

*If 5Ladies & A Gal is getting ready for the night in a room,

this is the mess you'll get..*Oops!!*

*ME & IllaAdq!*

*The ROSES*

*ME!!*

*ME & LianaLOVE!*

*ME & ShikinDear*

*ME & FizaDear*

*ME & LianaLOVE Again!*

*ME & IllaAdq*

*ME & AishahDear*

*LADIES in the house!*

*Ladies...Smile!!*

*Informal Shot!*

*ME & Sadiq*

[a new friend!]

*ME& AishahAdq*

*ME & The Roses!!*

*Ladies Of The Night!!*

*ME,Fiza&Aishah*

*9Ladies & A guy*

*Illa&ME*

*the whole tour group...*

*LianaLove & ME*

*AishahDear & ME*

*ME & CikMurni!*

*Shikin,Liana&ME*

*ME & Sadiq again..*

*Surau Anyone??LOL!*

*US with HYRUL the Man..*

*ME & Hyrul..*

**AFTER THE MUZIKA!!**

*ME & Liana...*

***AT THE BEACH!!!***

the sun,the sand & the sea=)

**The Guys!!**

*LianaLove&ME AGAIN!!*

*the beautiful view...*

*They are LOVED!*

*Fiza,ME&Liana=)*

*ITS US AGAIN!!!*

*Olie Surfing!!*

*Us with a different pose*

*Us with the beautiful view*

*Us again...*

*The Youth=)*

*The Ladies By the beach..*

*ME & LianaLOVE AGAIN!!!*

*Fiza&ME again!!*

*Shikin & ME!!*

*Aishah & ME!!*

**OTW BACK TO SINGAPORE!!**

******THANKS FOR THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORY!!!******

back from Pahang!

2008-12-24T19:58:00.002+08:00

Back From Pahang on the 22nd December 2008 @ 0030hours..

The trip was FABULOUS!GREAT!FUN!EXCITING!MEMORIABLE!

I Totally Love the moments we had together!!=)

*Fiza,Liana,Aishah,Shikin,Aishah,Wawan,Sadiq,Oli,Illa and everyone*

Theme was Black & Red..*usual=)*

The performance from the artis were GREAT & PERFECT!

But sadly, the crowd that attended was pathetic..literally pathetic..!!

no cheering or shouting..

But whatever alrights?i still KUDOS to the artis who performed..=)

Within 2 days..48hours..i became closer to the peeps..=)

anyway,i fell sick during the trip..

very sick i guess??

**
A shoutOut To..

FizaDear: Thanks Dear for the concern..Love ya!

LianaLove: Thanks for the 'nurseCare' that u showed love..! Love ya tau!

AishahDear: Thanks dear for everything..thanks for the support! love ya!

ShikinDear: thanks for the concern dear..!! love ya!!

IzarrBro: Thanks for the support and care that you showed!=)) thats for being a big brother who took care of me..=))

Aishah: thanks for the care and concern adq..!!love ya!!

Oli: thanks for the concern bro..!!=))

Wawan: thanks for the concern wan..!=))

Sadiq: thanks for the concern bro..!=) and thanks for the ride home!!=)

cikMurni: thanks for everything cikmurni..!! sayanggg cikmurni!!=))

1 last nite!

2008-12-18T15:07:00.002+08:00

1 last night!

today shall be my last night duty for the week..*whee~*

i've been looking forward for this night duty to come to an end..

as i'm looking forward to my friday afternn shopping trip and friday evening with the familiar people..=)

i'm seriously looking forward to this Pahang Trip with Hyrulites..=)

and i'm taking it as my quick getaway to relax..=)

I'm still thinking of what to buy for the trip..

i need new tops and jeans,new contact lens,new accessories and new heels..

roundly how much will i be spending for my shopping?

target is not more than $150.. alot right? hahaa!!

Sorry ya..i got high expectation when it comes to shopping..;)

the excitement in my bloodstream is rushing..

but at the same time,i'm tired physically..

***Lady M.ina spoken***

random thoughts: i feel different now..

2008-12-15T17:23:00.002+08:00

..fly me to the moon..

i'm wondering whether life is getting better for me or is it turning around to another side for me.. a sudden thought came to my mind as i was trying to catch some rest yesterday night.. it puzzles me as usual..wondering and thinking.. but then again,i cant question much right? i can only wait and see whats next in life? like every other human, we want life to get better than the current state that we are in am i right? *praying* i can only be thankful for what i have now and whom i have around me now.. the future?God Knows..:)

I'm feeling alright one moment and i feel pain the other moment.. *sigh*

anyways, its my night duty round tonight.. tonight is the 1st nite..thursday nite is the 4th and last nite..after which..Pahang Trip..Here i come..!!=))

Happy Birthday Kakak!!

2008-12-14T21:02:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Kakak!!

*May Allah Bless You with Love,Happiness,Health&Wealth always kak=)*

I once remember that we were distant from each other..I wouldnt much bother whenever you ask me a question or talk to me.. Eversince we became closer, i truly realise what i have been missing all these while.. I realise that i was missing the love the love and care from such a great and loving sister.. Even though we are cousins, i truly treat you like my very own sister.. I feel very attached to you nowadays.. you know what i mean right kak? i can even breakdown in tears if i cant meet up with you and your siblings.. And if any1 wants me to exchange you for something, i'll never exchange you for anything coz nothing in this world can be replace you kakak.. I know i may not say it everyday of my life,but i just want you to know that I Love You Always Kakak Ayu..!!and i'll forever be loving you always..

May your birthday be filled with lots of love kak..!!=))

*muacks!*

((Reen..adqMu))

Whee!!!

2008-12-12T18:14:00.002+08:00

I'm Feeling Better Today!!=)

*jumping for joy!* i'm feeling much better today..

i don't feel so sick this morning before work, during work and after work..=)

but having heacache and a bit of giddiness still*oops!*

but hey, on the positive side, much better than before right?

So anyways, i'm counting down to the days to my getaway!

But before getting all happy..i need to overcome 4NightDuty before the trip!!

after that.....!!!!!!

A quick Getaway to Pahang with my dear hyrulites!=))

*JUMPING FOR JOY & GRINNING!!*

I'm seriously looking forward to this getaway as its gonna be my 1st trip without my parents..!!*evil laughter!!*jkjk..!!

i just want to relax and have fun with my hyrulites!!=)

looking forward to have joy,fun & laughter with Exco=)

*whee!!!*

Thanks Babe

2008-12-11T14:44:00.003+08:00

Thanks Babe..=))

*Love ya!!*

**Sick?**

i'm still feeling sick currently..

hoping that i'll recover soon cause i dun like this feeling..

got to go now..

need my rest...=))

TakKaire..!!

2008-12-11T14:22:00.001+08:00

I'm SICK..!!

*sadden*

Leave Us

2008-12-09T17:21:00.002+08:00

a drop of word from you leads to an angry reaction..

honestly, i don't understand why you are doing all of these to us.. Do you not have anything better to you other than disturbing us with your nonsense talks..? The surfacing problems are also due to your creation.. Do realize that? Do you mind waking up from your dream world and see the reality around you? We pity you at first..But now,it has become an irritation.. You're become an irritating specimen to us..

Everyone is having a headache because of you.. You are begging to go for the trip?And we are begging you not to go for the trip.. I don't see any reason for you to go for the trip..I can just picture how things will be if you are there with us for the trip.. Instead of enjoying our time there, we will be arguing instead.. Stay in Singapore..Stay at home and don't meet us ever again please..

So you realize that you have been causing major problems non stop? this week alone, you have disturb us practically everyday of our life.. aren't you tired of disturbing us? for your info, we are tired of you already..

Seriously speaking, you are a pain to everybody's life.. Just leave us alone..Leave Us.. We don't need or even want you.. We will not be at lost if you are not around.. In fact ,we'll be much happier and better off without you..

For God Sake, please look at yourself at the mirror and listen to yourself before you even open your mouth to us...

2008-12-08T18:05:00.004+08:00

Familiar People...=)

2008-12-06T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today after work, i met up with fizaDear,CikMurniKu,Kyn,Wana,Izarr&Zuraimi @ Clarke Quay.. Supposing to finish up the final payment and everything for Pahang Trip...

So we walk around ClarkeQuay to find a place to eat and finally we found it!!=) Total Dinner was:$75..*ok lahhh..*

So anyways, we went to the Steps to hang out and chill out...

as i was in uniform,i dint sit on the ground..*sad!*

but as i was staring in mid air..looking at the water flow of the river..

It really soothens my mind..i felt more relax after that..and i'm glad that i met up with the Exco today..=)

Honestly, i'm looking forward for the Pahang Trip..!!=))*i'm all excited to go!!*

i'm loving my Hyrulites Exco more and more everyday...=)))

PS::Familiar people,thanks for today..love u all...!!!

Back Off Womannn..!!

2008-12-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

Its Gonna Be a Very Long Update..So hang in there oK?

Part II!

PS: i'm ventilating myself..

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LET ME ASK YOU...

Who do you think u are to judge me just like that?

Do you know me like how others know me?

Do you speak to me as often as the others talk to me?

Do i talk to u like how i talk to others?

Do i even look at you and smile whenever i see you?

Do i call out your name like how i call others?

Do i take snap shots with you like how i take with the rest?

NO RIGHT??!!!THEN???!!!
WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHTS OR PERMISSION TO CALL ME BAD?WHO?!

TELL ME WHO??!!!

For God Sake, Please..!Dont irritate me dont irritate others..!

I have EVERY RIGHT to be damn ANGRY with you woman..!

I can be nice and friendly towards you..But tell me something..

ARE YOU EVEN WORTH IT?

Do You deserve my kindness and smile?I DONT THINK SO!!!

I SEE NO REASON TO BE NICE TO YOU..

So be it that you are still around us,

it doesnt mean that i'll ever talk to you nicely..

I'm harsh and bad towards you proven ur point that i'm bad?

well, u did say i'm bad and i'll behave that way towards you..!

MY FRIENDS? They are different compared to you..

To me,you are just like a cockroach that i totally dislike and wants to get rid of you...

My CloseFriends in Hyrulites?(EXCO:Fiza,Aishah,SV,Liana,Jamilah,Syikin,Izarr,Zuraimi

ADQ:illa&qilah)

to me they are like treasures,diamond,love,smile,joy,happiness and a heart..without them, life will be meaningless cause i wanna keep them forever..

No1 has ever erupt my volcano of anger before..

but sadly,u made it erupted!!

Give 10 good and solid reason why i should not be angry with you??

C'mon!You cant!why?!coz u dun know me well enough!

Do all of us a favour can?or even do yourself a favour?

LOOK YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR FIRST BEFORE YOU JUDGING SOMEONE EVIL!! WHO IS THE ONE IRRITATING PEOPLE?WHO IS THE ONE TURNING THE STORIES AROUND?WHO CREATE TROUBLE AND FIND FAULT WITH OTHERS? WHO ALWAYS INTERFER WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFE?WHO KEEPS ON BOTHERING PEOPLE PERSONAL LIFE?WHO?!WHO?!

SO...BACK OFF WOMAN!!

Sakura Dinner...

2008-12-06T22:24:00.003+08:00

Its Gonna Be a Very Long Update..So hang in there oK?

PART I!

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Met up with adq illa at City Hall as we were heading to MediaCorps to watch K-Nite..

*hyrul's performing lahhhhh..=)*

So as we watch, we were told that hyrul is only coming out at the second act..*damn!*

by that time, i had to leave as i'm having a post JCI dinner with my work staff @ Orchard Sakura..*sorry Hyrul...=(*

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i thought i was late..but in the end, i was the ealiest..!!HUahahahaaa..=P

So anyway, the people who came was Me,KakRasha,Fe,Jinky,KakFau,KakSu, Kas,Janet,Guna,Lina,Sujing,Anna..

I swear it was FUN!! we were like cam whoring and laughing our asses off..

my side of the table*me,rasha,fe,jinky,fau&su*,we were the loud and noisy one..laughing non stop and making jokes and everything..while on the other side of the table..was pretty much the S.C..*senior citizen!*haha..they have the serious look on their faces whenever they have a conversation..unlike us..!!

So anyway, dinner was GREAT!! i love my kakRasha! i cant possibly upload all my Post JCI pics here..so,please view my FaceBook alrights??=))

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Last week events..!

2008-12-03T18:37:00.002+08:00

SweetDay @ Changi Airport.. (29th Nov 08)

Was suppose to fetch Hyrul in the late evening that very day..
But Me,Illa & Qilah decided to hang out first while waiting..
So we practically walked to every corner or the three terminals..
and trust me, we went camwhoring 24-7 non stop...
We had Lunch @ Mac and Dinner @ Popeye!=))
after which we met the Fiza,Liyana,Kyn,Izarr & CikMurni..=))

*welcome Home Hyrul...=)*

*Hyrul and Me..*

More pics @ my facebook ya?=)

Reply To Tags..!

!!Yichin:*wave!!* Miss ya!!
!!Pikmun Mummy: will do mummy..=))Miss ya!!
!!Nani: Hehee...and I MISS YOU TOO darl...!!
!!SV: Biiiiiiii...i rindduuu kat u lah biiiii....!!!

2008-11-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

Lady M. also known as Lady Marina..=)
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Yesterday was at my Aunt cum GrandMa place.. We celebrated Grandparents day over there with my beloved cousins and aunt..=))
I must thank my aunt for the DELICIOUS food..:) its was mouth watering and finger-licking good..*not joke!*
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Today at work..i swear i never felt like this before..
i never felt so frustrated and angry before at work..
i was in so much anger that i burst into tears..
i couldnt take it anymore actually..that's why i broke down..=(
*hurhur*
anyway, i hope that work will be better tomorrow?i hope..!!
gonna meet my Hyrulites this Sat!!=))*joy!!*

well..thats all for today folks..=))*peace Out!*

Random Edit!

2008-11-22T17:30:00.008+08:00

Random Editting Of Pics..

*resting @ home for now..=)*

Tmr going GrandMa Place as its GrandParents Day..!!=)) *i love you Nyi!!=))*

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random!

2008-11-18T18:27:00.002+08:00

i'm not very sure of what i should be feeling and what i should not be feeling..

honestly and seriously speaking, i'm not sure at all..

i admit i may look happy and cheerful at work and when i'm with my friends..
but deep within,i'm troubled actually..

further more,i'm worn out from work..

*Sigh!!*

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I'm glad that everything is alright for CikMurni and Family..=))

Update:151108

2008-11-16T21:01:00.005+08:00

UPDATES:

1)Reflection @ Republic Polytechnic..

2) My Cousin just gave birth yesterday=)

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part I!

Part II!

yesterday at work..i received a missed call from abg AJ..i messaged him after knowing that he called..

and GOOD NEWS!! my cousin just gave birth @ 1350hours..

So today after work, i decided to go over and pay her a visit..=))

when i saw the lil one..i went.. Awwwww.....

She is soOoOooOOOooo Cute and Pretty..=)

i'm sure she will be as pretty as her mom....

and her beautiful name is:HanaTasya..=))

and guess what..?i'm so honoured..!! cause i changed her diapers just now..

yes yes..u must think its crazy that i'm honoured.. when i have change many other people child pampers...i'm honoured coz out of my cousins, only me who knows how to change a baby pampers on the spot..=))and future more,i'm the lil one aunt u know..=))

after changing her, i carried her in my arm and let her fall asleep...

I swear she is soOOooo innocent and cute!!!=))

*ps:thanks abg and kak for the ride home..=))love ya!!*

2008-11-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

**DEAD TIRED!!**

anyway, otw home just now in the train..i nearly had a fall..=P

it was so malu..!!i was standing and dosing off..

but luckily i didnt fall..hahah!!!

and as i was alighting from the bus near my place, i saw this gal..looks familiar..

and guess who it was?it was ain..=))*wan's younger sister..*

she's so cute i tell u...=))hahaa..but she's a nice gal..=)))my so called adq angkat..heheee...

******

going ICA tomorrow..=))

collecting my passport..

here i come BANGKOK!!!!!!

A Real Update

2008-11-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

So much for updating about the events that has been running in my life..

But i realise that i have yet to do any updating about my own personal life..

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Honestly, life for me has be on the good side so far..

i'm comfortable with the situation that i am in right now..

i wouldn't want to complain about anything else..

instead,i'll take everything that comes along the way..*positive right?=P*

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___WORKLIFE__

Working life has been OK for me..i'm getting use to my work life and schedule..

I find working with them now brightens up my day*provided things are ok*

D&D really brought me and my staffs together..i love my staff now..=)

just to say this, i have 1 god-sister(kakak) and 1 god-sister(jie)..=))

been through so much during my first few months at work, but now.. things are so much better now and i'm proud of where i stand now..!!=))

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___FRIENDS___

i must admit that i have not been going out with most of my friends for a very long time already..and i'm sorry.. been busy with work*as usual*.. but i promise that i'll make up to it alrights?=))

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___HYRULITES__

i swear i love them lots..well, not everyone*if u know what i mean..*

Fiza,Liana and Aishah are my loved ones! my girlfriends..=))

Been meeting up with the Hyrulites peeps very often these days..

I guess its due to the Fasting month and Raya gathering..

and guess what?i'm meeting them again on the 15th..

Cause Hyrul got performance..=))

Hyrulites EXCO is LOVED!!

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___1LOVE___

I SWEAR I MISS THEM!!

-Kakak,Abg,KakNoi&One!-

Its been quite some time since i last one especially..

But whatever it is, i MISS THEM BADLY!!*hurhur*

but like people say "jauh di mata, dekat di hati..=)*

anyways, did i mention that i'm going to Bangkok with Abg & kakNoi?

hahahaaa!!my long awaited dream!!=))

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___LOVELIFE___

i accept lovelife as it is right now..

Not having a special person whom i can express my love to and show him care 24-7..

at first, i admit i was in need of some1 special..

But after lots of thinking,i truly realise that love cant be force..

i mean, if its not meant to be yours, its better to leave it right?

i rather wait for the right one..=)so that i can plan my future days with him..

but for now..it's just ME,Myself & I..

"i love u"..who's gonna say it to me? Only God Knows..

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Enuff about updating..!!=))

i just came back from ICA..

no no..i didnt do anything wrong..

i just went to make my new passport for my trip..=))

tomorrow i'm going out with AnnaGalgal..=))

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Final countdown..;)

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Popular!!

Back With Updates!

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Update babeyyy

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New Babies;)

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SICK!!

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quick update!

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baby love!

countdown!!

ECG day 1

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PISS!!

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GdFriday;)

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Updates....!

EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN

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Mon!

happy birthday sadiq!

Rewang2 Kpak Bing2..

MY leave!!

Monday was great..=)

moving ON!!

Post Night Duty

UPDATE!!

Morning Breakfast

with siter CT

Usual Peeps!!

injured!!

The Usual Suspect!!

Random...=P

Unsure!!

Training...!

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random..!!

..Random thoughts...

Birthday//PerrFect//after ND

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Birthday POST!!

KNITE!!

NewYear Pics!

1st post in 2009!

Happy Moments!

Memory Lane*Pahang*

back from Pahang!

1 last nite!

Happy Birthday Kakak!!

Whee!!!

Thanks Babe

Leave Us

Familiar People...=)

Back Off Womannn..!!

Sakura Dinner...

Last week events..!

Random Edit!

random!

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