EMOTIONAL side Of Me..

I swear to god that i did something very stupid and hurting yesterday night..
i msged him and told him that i'm letting him go for now..
letting him find his freedom and everything..
i'll be behind him for sure 24-7..but i cant tell him that i miss every other night anymore..
its something that i know i'll regret one day or another..
i cried so much yesterday night..
tell myself.."why did i do it?why??!!"
Fact: i love him and i truly do..*many of you will know who i'm refering to..*
and i have never fallen in love so deep with any other guy ever since he entered my heart..
What i did yesterday night was the hardest thing i have ever done..killing myself deep..
i told myself..*i got to move on..he'll be NS for two years..just pray for his safety and that he'll be a better man after two years..Within that two years,i'll move on with life..enjoying life to the fullest..but at the same time,see whether he's made for me or someone else is made for me..*

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Decided to go out today to let myself go and relax..
Msged KakEzah..So i met KakEzah&Shai at tanah merah platform and headed towards the Airport..*out of all places,why airport?i want to go T3!!=)*
So we walked around..and searched for shai's future working place..we were walking round and round..and finally found it!!=)it was so near actually..=P
after which,we bought 1 large pureChocolateIceBlend from CoffeeBeans and headed for T3..=)
we walked around..and we had our laughters..=)
*adeq-beradeq of Swensens anyone?*
Chocolates..and more chocolates..we were nearly drooling at the chocolateFactory..*drooll*
from T3..we went to T1..and from T1 to T2..
decided to have our meal at McDonalds..We are the McSpicyLovers..=P
as we had our meal,we talked about a-Thousand-and-one topics..
hahaa..talking about things we shouldnt be talking about..
talking about "him"..and yada yada yada..*not gonna say what we said*
we then had Sundaes..ChocolateSundaes..=))
and we continue talking till about 1845hrs..
we are planning to go out again..but dunnoe when..=P*oneday..*
reached home ard 8pm?yah..
Tomorrow will be the start of my 9StraightWorkingDays..*yiaks!!*
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i wanna move on.but will i be able to move on without you..?
..i just want you to be mine...

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