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Simple Rule Applies..don't like it, leave!

MaRinA iS Me!
Just Turned 20 on 18Aug. . LEO BABY=D
PAP//Xingnan Pri//Westwood Sec//ITE SiMei AHS//Hospital
Missy IN Nursing since Jan 2006
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Love status:Single
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Running Into Depression?

that is the question that is running in my mind at this very moment..
am i depressed? can some1 tell me..?

Honestly, life have been on the down side for me.. No matter how hard or how much i try to be happy in life, i failed..I know i do not look as though i am feeling down or crying deep inside.. The fact is that i am crying and bleeding deep within me.. I dun know what is going to happen to me mentally..i'm falling apart and breaking into pieces..call me emotional or whatever,i don't care..

I'm having too many stress in my mind..i'm breaking down..
i never felt like this before and its my first time feeling this way..feeling so down and depressed for the first time..i admit that i tried moving on with life and accepting things the way it is..But i'm sorry.. I'm not strong enough to face it.. Broken and shattered into a million and one pieces..

Today,called home..asked if there was food..if not i can call delivery..and spoke to me in not a nice tone "you pay come already right?got withdraw the money not?" i only got my pay yesterday for god sake..its not as though i wun give right?..gave how much i could gave..i was questioned why its lesser this month..i explained but didnt believe me..told me "please save money lah..you working now..if u dun save, who's going to help u..?" you want me to save..i can..if i could..half of what i earn goes to you..what is left for me to save?
Sometimes i really feel as though i don't exist..i know that in life there are Up's and Down's.. But does this mean most of the time it have to be Down's?
Honestly,i cant talk to my parents or siblings on how i feel..
i cant voice out my stress or concern or problems..i cant ventilate to anyone at home at all.. i can only voice out to my cousins and friends if i see them..*i miss them deeply..^kakak,abgHan,AbgMamal,KakNoi,TwinWan^{Dee,Ima,Sal,Tasya,Ayu}..hannah sis..zaimieDeq*

Damaged..that is the exact word that describes me now.Bleeding and shattered..
I need my treatment to heal my broken soul..
Been crying since 7plus till now.. No one knows how down i am feeling..


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