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my heart bleed for u..

Thursday, September 20, 2007 8:30 PM / 1st Story

The other side of me..?

fallin out of love is seriously not easy..falling in love is definately easy..

and for once in my life time,i feel so down and lost..

20th september..

i once hated this very day..and i still do hate this very day actually..

out of all the person that i once loved and cared for,this one guy here is so different..

loving him and caring for him is such a beauty..and i nvr once hated or regretted loving him..

but behind the beauty lies pain and sacrifices which i have never felt before or have done for anyone before..

all these while,i have been trying hard to hide and bury the feelings that i have for him in my heart and in my life..it was never easy for me to put the past i have with him..

i felt so much better since a month ago or so..

and i told myself that i will not let this feeling i have for him out ever again..

till today,that feeling i have for him is resting in peace and i m happy..

but tonight, those feelings are is starting to haunt me once again..

for once,the feeling of missing you is so strong that i cried to myself in the room..

i feel so incomplete tonight..knowing that you are dere with the rest..but i cant be there spending time by urside..honestly,i missing you like crazy..i truly wish i am there right now..

no1 can tell how much i miss u right now..

i asked myself why do i love u so much..and till this very day,i have yet to answer that question..even after loving u for more than a year plus..i still cant answer the question"Why do i love u so much till now.?"

and after what happened tonight,it will be hard for me to get over u again..it took my so long to keep the feelings deep inside me within disturbing my daily life..i guess its gonna be even harder now for me..?

Like i said earlier on,loving u is such a beauty but yet,i suffer so much pain deep inside of me..i know for sure that forgetting u for REAL is gonna take a very long time..and i can only pray that i get stronger by the day to get over you for real..i know that i can only love u in silence..and it hurts me to love u in silence after all i've been through with u..i hope God will give me the strength to get over you..I know for a fact,its only a matter of time that i will get over you and treat u as a friend only..when?God only knows the answer to that question..

My heart bleeds as i love u in silence..