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Sunday, September 30, 2007 11:27 PM / 1st Story

*My Student Leader Family*
Well,was chatting with deq wan & aziz..we were discussing about meeting up and doing catching up with each other..and it made me miss my SL family alot..as in seriously,i miss them so much..the memories that we had together,will nvr be forgotten..the laughters that we had,will always be fresh in my mind..i really miss you guys..

Pissed!

8:49 PM / 1st Story

Lets just say that today a "Just Ok" day..

Had a meeting today @ Marina Square Starbucks..

What i can abt the meeting was,shocking..

i shall not say more abt it alright..

i shall see how things will be..

Had to kill the boredness that is in me right now..

so i did some song hunting..

and yah..i got myself afew songs..

but,i'm still searching for song..

Other than that..

i feel pissed off with this person..

stop being a person who acts so good alright?

Such a pain in the ass ok..

i cant believe i have to live with it..

be thankful u are still unhurt till now...

29sep update!!

1:26 PM / 1st Story

29th September 2007..

as i woke up today,i was still having migraine and it was still killing me..

today i guess i din felt right..i wasnt feeling alright and tip-top as the way i used to be on every saturday..

for once,i felt so 'not me'..niway,like wad i'll usually do if i am not being myself..

i'll be like wearing a mask to cover the sadness or wadsoever that i am feeling deep inside me..

problems aside first alright?

Well,like every other saturdays since the fasting month started..

i'll always go over to my grandma to break my fast and to do our prayers together as a family..but for today,my cousins and me decided to go to Gelyang Serai Bazaar to shop..

Honestly speaking,today's trip to geylang is my first time going there after so long..and wow..its really hot there..haha..

i guess its becoz i nvr wen there b4..?after that ard 4plus 5..

we left geylang to go to our grandma place..

and,i got my victoria's secret perfumes today..=))

today..we had spagetti,popiah and afew other food..and oOh oOh..brownies..i love brownies..=))

kakak bought them..but i must say that nothing can ever beat my aunt cooking..

seriously..i so love her cooking..she's the best aunt..=)

and i must say,i controlled my migraine so much today that i felt weak at the end of the day..till i fell aslp while waiting for the rest to finish their prayers..i'm sorry cause i fell asleep..but,i wasnt feeling well.. AnyWay,tmr i still have meeting at esp 3pm..gosh..i hope that my migraine will be better den..=(

(a prob that i wun say..it hurts me..)

Being a lady now,for once..fear was running in me..i dun noe..but naturally,i got scared..i became cold and scared..for once,i broke down in tears,crying feeling so scared..i'm not sure if everyone understands whats running in me and why i feel scared and fear..but,its a feeling that really brought me down..

crying to myself in fear at night..feeling so scared and cold at night..

ALONE IN THE COLD NIGHT WITH FEAR..

SICK

Friday, September 28, 2007 8:04 PM / 1st Story

Feeling depressed suddenly..i'm not sure why i'm feeling this way..I mean,i was alright moments ago..but now,i m feeling depressed..its bothering my mind as i wonder wad i m depressed abt.. and for once after so long..i have the craving to start my old habit again..i dun noe why..some of you may ask whats my old habit..well,i cant tell u abt that..but thinking again and again..i promised to twin that i wun start the old habit again..i cant break that promise i made to twin..i'm sorry twin cause i thought of doing it..i promised u i wun do it,and i'll keep that promise..i wun do it again..

i'm not sure why feeling depress gives me migraine..but seriously,after so long not having migraine,a sudden migraine hurts so much..usually i'll be able to handle the pain..but for once,i cant..i'm lying my head on the cushion as i am typing my entry now..i feel so different and weak suddenly...wads wrong with me?God knows..Ouhk..i have to end here..i cant take the pain anymore..anything,just tag me or sms me kies?

Emo mE..!!

6:15 PM / 1st Story

like the sun,you brighten up my day..

as bright as e moon,you lighten up my night..

your presence of love makes me feels so right..

you said u'll always hold me tight..

Our love was such a beauty to the eye..

You promise that u'll never make me cry..

Time flies and made me realise..

The love you gave to me was nothing but only lies..

I thought u loved only me in your eyes..

But as i gaze into your eyes..

i know what i told myself were all lies..

For once,you brought tears to my eyes..

.....

i dunnoe why but,when i woke up today,i feel so Emo..its weird for me to be feeling emo at this time as most of you would have known that i've started moving on with life..but one thing i could remember from my dreams at night..it was all about love..Thats why i'm being Emo for today.. Listening to love song since 2/3pm till now..I realise that being in love with someone is such a beauty and it makes me feel so complete..I shouldnt be putting high hopes in a relationship so soon..Cause i know the feeling of a losing someone u love so much and so deep..The feeling is definately not a feeling that i want to feel again..its hard when the wound is still not healed yet.. From now onwards,i leave Love Life up to fate..Love cant be force right?We know that.. When the times come for me to be in love,that is when i'll truly love and cherish the One..

But for now,i'm loving my Family,Cousins, Those who i treat as my Blood Siblings and of course my Frends..

meeting!!

Thursday, September 27, 2007 11:52 PM / 1st Story

Waiting for the main committee members to be online to 'continue' our meeting or should i say 'the listening meeting'..

AFTER SOMETIME....

OuhK..meeting over..?i guess..?now,we shall wads up next for the meeting...**

3rd entry of the day...!!

8:40 PM / 1st Story

Back from the meeting..and one thing i hate abt myself..i will usually get lost whenever i am not very familiar to that area..trust me..its more than once and i feel so scared after that..i guess thats just me?LOST..so,next time..must meet me k?i m very scared..i know i may look as if i know everything or alot of things ard me..but,deep inside me..i'm very scared of being lost in areas that i m not used to or not familiar to...=(
Anyways,i wen to abg's bloggy..and i got a song dedication from him..
To me,the song is very meaningful and its filled with feelings that are kept in me for so long...
Its a Malay Song tittled Hilang By Diddy...

Tiada pernah aku menduga Never had I realize
Kasih kau pergi tinggalku sendiri You left me alone, my love
Dusta cinta mengeruh jiwa Love fib clouded soul
Pedihnya mencengkam dihatiku yang sepi Pain resonate in my lonely heart

Sangkaku kasih selamanya I assumed love was forever
Janjimu setia di hatiku Your promise of faith in my heart

Seribu penyesalan A thousand regret
Hilang harapan ku impikan Lost, my hopes of a dream
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu Happiness I've wanted with you
Kasih yang kuserahkan Love that I gave
Hilang meredah luka dalam Lost, deeply wounded
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu My heart excruciating badly

Malam dingin ku sendirian Cold night alone
Berteman rindu mimpi yang keliru Accompanied by confusing dreams
Sayang musnah tak kesampaian Pity, destroyed
Hanya derita rundung duka membelenggu Only suffering shackles the sorrow

Akan ku ubati… I will heal
Kasih yang pergi dari sisi Love that left me
Takkan ku biarkan ia I won't let it be
Terus terluka, musnah dan hilang Forever hurt, destroyed and lost

2nd entry of e day..

11:55 AM / 1st Story

Like i've promised earlier on in my 1st entry of the day..i'll upload the pictures right?well,here they are..=))but seriously,my eyes are so heavy..i could hardly open right now..and i cant believe that i have a meeting later at Bugis @ 3pm..i feel so dead right now..i can even fall asleep in front of the laptop right now..Argh!!i cant open my eyes big enuff..meeting has to be today..when i feel so dead and tired and can hadly open my eyes to stay awake...ouhk..i think i wanna catch 1more hr of slp..hopefully i wun oversleep and be late for meeting..anyone who is kind enuff to msg me as a wake up call later?

*Java Chips along with our cakes...=D*

*Galgal-Ms Mazni-Me*
*Group Love...=D*
*Me with My Gurlfren & 'Boyfrens'..=D*

Airport

7:45 AM / 1st Story

I'm back..!!
i just reached home minutes ago from the airport..
since ytr night at 11plus at night till this morning 5plus am..
i've nvr overnighted at the airport eversince i am a teenager..
so yah..i wen there to send my frends off to Laos..
they'll be away for 1week..
me and galgal decided to go to StarBucks to rest..and when we were getting nearer to the StarBucks,ppl was like looking at us..*Like wth sia..nvr see ppl b4 izzit?* So yah,as usual..at starbucks..i'll order my favourite Java Chips along with Oreo Cheese Cake..*saliva dropping* haha..we ate slowing while waiting for Fai to arrive..and sad to say,but the time fai arrives,we finished our cakes..hAha..So i think at around minutes past midnight,we decided to move over to CoffeeBeans as the rest was there already..So we chatted,laughed alot n laugh even more..we laugh till stomach feel like breaking...LMAO..!!till abt 2plus..?we had to leave get ready to take the shuttle bus to the terminal..and thank god galgal rmb's her phone..she left it at the toilet!!omg!!but thank god she found it..Lucky u gal..=))and one we reached dere,we were spending time taking photo,chatted with each other and just..spend time to let time pass by..and finally,the time has arrived for them to check-in and get things settled..soon enuff,things were all settled and all ready for them to start going in.. after that,Ms Mazni was kind enuff to send us to Buona Vista Mrt Station..(Thank u..=D)after that me and gal took the train back to BL.. they will be back in abt a week's time i think..i pray for their safety going and returning..
OuhkOuhk..i'm dead tired..still have meeting to go later in the afternn..i have yet to get a single hour of slp..=(*sobsob*OK!thats it..i wanna slp now..i shall upload the pics later in the day k?
GOOD NIGHT...=))

MY DEAREST TWIN!!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007 4:46 PM / 1st Story

A little something from the past... (spot me if u can..twin..where r u..wait!i saw u..)

honestly speaking,i am kind of sad and feeling down at the moment..
i know i'm suppose to stay strong and everything..
but,without my twin..how am i suppose to stay strong..?
not many of u know my twin..its ok..
but my dear twin is the greatest support i ever have..
my health is not in a good condition..
i thought i could hide it from everyone including my twin..
but i couldnt..he knows that i was hiding..
and instead of scolding or getting angry like some of my frends and ppl around me..
he encouraged me and gave me moral support..
there was once i felt like giving up in taking care of myself coz i got very tired of it..
he brought me up and supported me from the back..
till now,he'll ask once in awhile abt my health condition..
and i promised myself that becoz of my twin,i'll not give up and try to recover..
even in life..we are facing problems that are similar..
and we know how each other feels deep inside..

twin..if u are really fading away.u left me speechless.i dun want u to fade away coz u have always been the greatest support all these while.25thMarch2007..Was the very 1st day that we "found"each other once again after dissapearing for quite sometime..its has only been 6mth since we last had a long pause in our friendship..and today,u wanna fade?='(.. 6mths..a short period of time right?Wrong..in this 6mths,many things has happened and we have always been supporting each other twin..i remembered that i promised u that i'll never fade away of dissapear from ur life ever again remember?and till this day,i'm still holding on to that promise that i made to you..and if u really wanna fade from other people's life..can u just not fade away from my life twin?you have always been there when i'm in need twin..when i dun feel right,i could always turn to you and after talking to you,i'll feel so much better after that..i really do not want u to fade twin..='(..over 10yrs of friendship..over 10yrs twin..u are the one and only one whom i know since childhood days to primary sch days till secondary sch up to now..i couldnt have asked for more..the friendship that we had,will always be remembered and i truly treasure our friendship twin..if u are really fading,tell me pls twin..i'll be waiting for the day for u to return..but till that day that u return..i won't forgive myself twin..seriously,i wont forgive myself..
NO1 CAN EVER REPLACE YOU MY DEAREST TWIN...='(

burfday gals..

4:35 PM / 1st Story

A SHOUT OUT TO...

#1 Deq Syaz!!

*HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DEQ!!=))*

dah besar adeq kakak nie..

be good kies..=)

semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki..

may all ur hopes and dreams come true deq..

Sayang Adeq Kakak..=))

#2 Sipelle Sis..!!

*HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SIS!!=))*

finally 18..legal already ah..=)

may all ur hopes and dreams come true sis..

do take care and hope u will have a great day today..=)

New Baby..=))

Tuesday, September 25, 2007 4:20 PM / 1st Story

I'm back..!!=))haha..well,it din take me long to do my monthly shopping..haha..it took me like erm..2hours to finish up my shopping for the month..it din take me longbut i sure did spent alot and i mean alot..well,i cant say that its more than the other months..but its a normal thing for me to spend that much..haha..!!*evil laughter..*kiak kiak kiak...

well,i spend alot of makeup alone for this month..cause i think i did the topping up of my makeup kit..And 95% of my makeup are all from TheBodyShop..yes yes..u heard me right..95% from TheBodyShop..my face foundation,eye liner,eye shadow,mascara,blusher,lipstick plus lipgloss, makeup remover and facial cream..They are all from TheBodyShop..every month i'll usually spend at least $60 on TheBodyShop..Crazy right?cause their products are not cheap..haha..i know..but,i love their products..even my showgel is also from TheBodyShop.. besides doing my monthly shopping at the bodyshop..i did the rest of my shopping at JL..i bought 2 McBlue sleeveless top..and a new sunglass for the month..=))and i bought the white one..=))haha..

Pay day=))

11:59 AM / 1st Story

25th of the month of September..

i've been waiting for this day to come..

*evil laughter*Muahahaha..

thats for me to know and for u to find out..

ouhk..i wanna do some shopping today..=))

i guess i wun go far..Jurong Point?Ouhk..i'll shop dere then..

Shall update when i return alrights..=))

kekasih gelapku...

Monday, September 24, 2007 12:57 PM / 1st Story

Kekasih Gelapku...

by Ungu

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun

Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu

Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku

Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu

Disaat engkau merindukan diriku

Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu

Yang panjang dalam hidupku
Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku

Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku

Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku

Yang panjang dalam hidupku..
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun

Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu

Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku

Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun

Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu

Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku

Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun

Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu

Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku

Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..

240907

12:13 PM / 1st Story

at night,it was a heartbreaking time for me..for once in my lifetime,i felt so hurt..you have nvr called me marinah or reen b4 since the day we knew each other..and ytr night..u called me mariah and reen..do u have anyidea how much u have hurt me with just two words.?i may sound sensitive when its only two words and its my name..but be it..!i've nvr hear u call my other nick name or my actual name..why must u hurt me again..i cried myself to slp..it hurts..and it still hurts..the wound of the broken heart is still bleeding yet u added in the pain..

i told myself..

"Ina..its abt time u get a grip of ur own life and move on..he has hurt u too many times am i right?wads the point of u loving him when he has hurt you like crazy..its driving u up the wall right?so move on..tell urself that loving him was a pleasure and the memories you had with him,let it be ur past and part of ur memory lane..i know it hurts like mad and it still hurts till now..its been a year plus now..let him go for real and give others a chance to be important in ur life k..i know many sacrifices were made for him..take it as a helping hand and as a form of care for him k..move on ina..move on.."

and i will try my best to move on with life..coz i have my cousins,my friends and loved ones by my side..i couldnt have asked for more now...

to that someone out there...whats your freaking problem?!i dun see a reason why u need to behave the way u did..you thing it was cute and whatsoever right..?NOT!face the fact alright?it was such a pain and freaking irritating to see that stupid behaviour of urs..it's just my luck to know someone like you in my life..think twice before u act..Oops!i forgot..u dun use your brain to think..well,if you tell me that others can accept u the way u are and not complain,why cant i accept u like others too..?Well,i have my way of life..and having ppl like you,are such a pain in the aRss..if i dun hit you or anything,be thankful alright..i can be very mean if u push your luck too far..If you are not happy with it,fine!!SCRAM!!

=))me me me

Sunday, September 23, 2007 10:06 PM / 1st Story

nothing much to say actually..coz i'm really very tired and in a no mood season..i mean,even when breaking fast time,i din eat much..i ate very little today..even i find it weird..but what the hack..i dun have mood..i guess that's the reason for me to start drawing..and i've come up with afew ideas for my door sign..=)i dun think i can slp early tonight..i dunnoe..i'm troubled..?i guess so..

Sth New..=))

6:00 PM / 1st Story

A NEW LOOK!!=))

been trying to renovate and come out with sth new and fresh for my blog..

did sth to the background..editted the display pic and the main pic..

added in time clock & punkymood..

well..i made it simple,but nice and freshing..

ORANGE is the theme of my blog..haha..even my time clock is in orange colour..=)

i can say that i used up 3hrs just to finish editting the whole blog?trial & error many times just to get the final one..=))

i guess its the season for changing blogskin/url?many of my frens did a make-over for their blogs too..cool huh?

ouhk ouhk..got to end here..

till next time....Signing off...

White Chocolate..=))

ps:sorry deq nurul..coz i cant meet u online tonight..anything msg me alrights?miss ya loads deq..!!=(Take care k..esk deq dah start sch kan?haiz..tak dapat umpe deq online lagi lah ni..=(

MISSING YA ADEQ!!

Sufiyan burfday!!=))

12:25 AM / 1st Story

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY

MD.SUFIYAN!!=))

*wah3..dah besar anak mak lah..haha..

well,even though we aint in the same class no more..

i do hope that the friendship will not come to an end..Do take care of urself kies..

i know u are at the RamadhanRock event..

May all ur hopes and dreams come true yan..

All the best in ur studies and career yaN..

InsyaAllah..=))Amin..

Have a great and happy day alright Birthday Guy..=))*

=))2209007

Saturday, September 22, 2007 11:42 PM / 1st Story

just returned from my grandma aka aunt place..i broke my fast there with the rest of my cousins..it has been a week since we last met and broke our fast together..=))we did do some catching up with each other as usual..and we do have our usual laughters and topics to talk abt..
it is a a good way for us to stay strong..=))we broke our fast and got ready for prayers..we did the normal prayers and we terawih together too..after that prayers,we relaxed ourselves and ate YamRice..=)with friut punch as our drink..we ate till we filled our stomachs..hehe..thats why i love whenever we cousins meet up..our moms cooking are tiptop..=))its really finger-licking good...*Yumyum!!* and ard 10plus..we wen separate ways and wen back home..till we meet again next weel*if god's willing(InsyaAllah)* and and and..i asked kakak to help me buy Victoria's Secret perfume for me..i so love her perfumes..=)) anyways,i'm planning to go to gelyang serai next saturday b4 going to my grandma place again..which means going in the afternn..=))so..i'm just so happy that i met my cousins today..i mean,i get to forget my problems and feel so free and happy..=))

thank god tmr,the contractors will not be around..so i can wake up late again..!!yesa...!!=)) coz ytr,i had to wake up early just becoz of them..but,on monday..they'll be back to continue working and finishing the stuff..but on the bright side,monday will be the last day!!=))

*letting u be a piece of my past..not wanting to have anyhopes on u..*

prisoner...

3:57 PM / 1st Story

Loving someone is easy..

Forgetting someone isnt as easy as it may seem..

""Mengapa dulu kau cinta
Mengapa kini kau siksa
Sengaja mencari alasan
Menyakiti hatiku
Mengapakah ku merindu
Mengapa hati merayu
Mungkinkah kerna ku terlupa
Aku pernah terluka
Kita dah berpisah
Terpisah dalam cinta
Kenapa oh mengapa
Ini semua terjadi
Hampalah bunga cinta
Kasihku pun melara
Hilanglah oh asmara
Yang kita lafazkan dahulu
Hilanglah serinya""

*Prisoner of the broken heart...*

night night

Friday, September 21, 2007 10:52 PM / 1st Story

if only i can forget abt him amd the memories we had within a day..

i mean,it took me very long to get over him..and he suddenly appears out of the blue..

and i seriously hate the way things are right now..

simply said because the feelings that i have kept in me so deep is not out once again..

does any1 know how irritating it is whenever it happens?

Oh god..i admit that i once loved him..but thing are different now and before..

i can say that i have feelings for him still becoz ytr the feelings came back to me suddenly..

i know i shd be moving on with life without letting wad happened ytr affects me at all..

its easier said than done..seriously..

Loving him was such a beauty but yet so painful and hurting now..

no matter how much i used to suffer or am suffering from..the feeling of loving him still does strike me once in a blue moon..

i never found out the reason why leaving him and the memories we have together is such a pain to the mind and heart..called my blinded by love..call me foolish..

but go through wad i've been through then u tell me wad u will feel at the end..

NOW..

i cant say that i dun miss him or anything..but,its just me..

when it comes to love..i can get very weak in this..talking abt forgetting my ex..

it din take me like 1 da or 1wk or 1mth..i'll definately take more that than to get over a guy..

but for him,it din take me 1 mth..not 1 semester..it took me mths and i mean mths just to get over him..and within a blink of an eye..it all comes back to me overnight..

with or without him in my life..i have to move on..i cant possibly hope that he'll return right?

i need to move on..no matter how long it takes,i will try and continue trying to get over him..

i know i'm weak when it comes to love..but,i'll try..

*its easier said than done..*

DIL TWIN=))

Thanks for everyhing tonight..thanks for being a listening ear and hearing my probs just now..honestly,till now..i'm kind of lost and not 100% sure..but like u said.."lets take everything in our stride.."we have to move on..once again,thanks for everything once again twin..=) You are the greatest twin!!=))

love love love

1:22 PM / 1st Story

i have never once thought that i will be feeling the way i am toady..
i couldnt sleep at yesterday night..
i toss and turn in bed..feeling incomplete and unsure..
i remembered mths ago..i wen through the exact feeling and thoughts thats running in me..
i thought that i will not be feeling the exact feelings for the same guy again..
but i guess i was wrong abt myself..
why am i loving him so deep..?
i dun have the answer to that question myself..
i guess maybe its because i truly love him so deep..with sincerity & love thats so pure..
feeling lost and confused at the same time..
i seriously wish that i can get over you soon..cause i dun wanna continue living life the way i'm living now..

*i bid u farewell with one final love..things will change for the better one day..*

my heart bleed for u..

Thursday, September 20, 2007 8:30 PM / 1st Story

The other side of me..?

fallin out of love is seriously not easy..falling in love is definately easy..

and for once in my life time,i feel so down and lost..

20th september..

i once hated this very day..and i still do hate this very day actually..

out of all the person that i once loved and cared for,this one guy here is so different..

loving him and caring for him is such a beauty..and i nvr once hated or regretted loving him..

but behind the beauty lies pain and sacrifices which i have never felt before or have done for anyone before..

all these while,i have been trying hard to hide and bury the feelings that i have for him in my heart and in my life..it was never easy for me to put the past i have with him..

i felt so much better since a month ago or so..

and i told myself that i will not let this feeling i have for him out ever again..

till today,that feeling i have for him is resting in peace and i m happy..

but tonight, those feelings are is starting to haunt me once again..

for once,the feeling of missing you is so strong that i cried to myself in the room..

i feel so incomplete tonight..knowing that you are dere with the rest..but i cant be there spending time by urside..honestly,i missing you like crazy..i truly wish i am there right now..

no1 can tell how much i miss u right now..

i asked myself why do i love u so much..and till this very day,i have yet to answer that question..even after loving u for more than a year plus..i still cant answer the question"Why do i love u so much till now.?"

and after what happened tonight,it will be hard for me to get over u again..it took my so long to keep the feelings deep inside me within disturbing my daily life..i guess its gonna be even harder now for me..?

Like i said earlier on,loving u is such a beauty but yet,i suffer so much pain deep inside of me..i know for sure that forgetting u for REAL is gonna take a very long time..and i can only pray that i get stronger by the day to get over you for real..i know that i can only love u in silence..and it hurts me to love u in silence after all i've been through with u..i hope God will give me the strength to get over you..I know for a fact,its only a matter of time that i will get over you and treat u as a friend only..when?God only knows the answer to that question..

My heart bleeds as i love u in silence..

missing bbq..

3:39 PM / 1st Story

Well,at this very moment,i shd be getting ready and setting off for my class gathering..but sad to say that i cant make it..=( i wish i could go..but i have my reasons for not being able to make it..Sorry guys..i really hope and wish that u guys will have fun alrights?I miss you guys so much already..Love u always JR0601D..=))

**Sitting at home and resting..

feeling bored actually coz i'm supposed to be outside by now..**

drill competition..

Wednesday, September 19, 2007 8:32 PM / 1st Story

PART TWO Of Wednesday..!!

like i said from my previous post..

i had to go back to my secondary school to help out with my juniors and also to witness the competition itself..

when the room was open,everyone was busy with either polishing their shoes, or diverting their anxiety to sth else..(understandable lah)

so..i set a target for them..by 2.15pm...i expect everyone to be changed and read for unifor inspection..and apparently,as usual..they are late..so at 2.25..they are finally ready..

and trust me..if u were there standing at the spot i was,u can see the anxiety being diverted into restlessness movement..i was kind of irritated and very tensed up already at that point...but i just hate to take it some how or rather right..?

the pressure is on and the tense is getting higher by the minute..

3.30pm..

the judges arrived..

and you can tell the fear in the eyes of the participants..

one by one..

the individual uniform group perform their drill..

BB followed by NCC..then NPCC...GB..and finally SJAB..

(while watching the other cca groups,i got kind of worried for them..coz everyone of the uniform group did slow march..i was reali worried for them..seriously worried..)

Finally..it was sj's turn to do their drills..i was praying so hard for them in my heart..hoping that things will be good for them..after the entire sequence was over for them..i was very happy for them..coz they did their tukar haluan & displak WELL..i was so happy and proud of them when i saw the improvement that they made..

Result time..!!

everyone was scared and anxious abt the outcome and what the judge have to say..

when the teacher was announcing..he said runners-up,SJAB..we were blurred and really blurred at that moment..so we didn't really got the message..he then repeat..we then found out that we got 2nd place..*HEY!!2nd place is still good alright!!*

and the champion for intra-UG drill competition 2007 was Girls Brigade..Well done girls..!!=))

*To all my sj babies..*

it does not matter wad position u got today..

wad matters the most was that u did your best..

and i'm sure you did ur best just now..

i know what she sadi was hard and not nice to hear..

but, continue to work hard and prove her wrong kies my dear..?

i'm really proud of u all that i was alot of improvement in all of u..

continue to work hard and do well for the future kies..?

Loving u guys always..=))

ur ma'am marinah..

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10:48 AM / 1st Story

19th September 2007..

a day filled with different events..

first thing first..

A ShoutOut to CRYSTAL MEI..

**HAPPY 16TH BURFDAY TO U MEI!!**

(May all ur hopes and dreams come true..

all the best in everything that u do me..Esp ur 'O' Levels..

Love ya always mei..)

second,today is the day that all uniform group in my secondary sch is looking forward to actually..

WHY?

Simply said,today is the

INTRA-UNIFORM GROUP FOOTDRILL COMPETITION 2007..

Its the 4th competition this year..and trust me,the tension is UP for my uniform group..You may ask why we feel a great tension..well,its because for the past 3years,we have been winning the championship cup..ever since the competition started in the sch,we have been winning the trophy..thats we the juniors are feeling very tensed up right now..in a few hours time,the competition will start..here i am at home.waiting for time to past by me..before i actually leave the house and get them ready for the competition..Anxiety and pressure is on.. my juniors have been training since june/july is i m no mistaken..well,i can only hope and pray that things will go well for them later..they are taking part in the competition,but i am the one feeling the tension,anxiety,fear and pressure...haha..i dun know how things will be later..but i pray for the best..i'll update again later at night abt the event itself alrights..

to DEQ NURUL;

as ur kakak,it's by nature that u have become impt to me..seeing u sad or troubled or anything, will definately affects me my dear..that y,i'll always be there by ur side..near or far..i'll always want this adeq of mine simle and be happy always..no doubt we have yet to meet up or anything,without seeing u already gives me a great bond with you..

and i'm glad to hear that u will stay strong and be stong..=))

Take care deq..=))

Love u always..!!

Tuesday tuesday..=))

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 3:44 PM / 1st Story

TUESDAY TUESDAY!!

as usual,i woke up late..*haha!* but after doing the normal stuff i usually do after i wake up..i remembered that i have pictures of my nieces and nephew..=))so as what i will usually do,i edited them..=))today have been a OK day..i wun say that its a boring day actually..coz i have my songs and computer with me to occupy my time..

*WAIT!!*

WHITECHOCOLATE HAVE STH TO SAY TO;

Deq Nurull..=))

*deq..u are at most welcome my dear..u dun owe me anything..dun say that kies..?i'm ur sis..thats wad sisters are for kan..?thats my lil gurl..=)be strong kies..i believe that u can stay strong no matter wad..=))

Love ya TRUCKS deq..rmb that..(hughug)*

..So,here are the pics of my with my nieces & nephew..=))

happy viewing ppl..=))

Monday...=))

Monday, September 17, 2007 10:35 PM / 1st Story

TIRING MONDAY!!
i know its only the first day of the week..despite being the first day only,i feel so dead already..i mean,i feel so worn out already..the moment i reached home,i was like..so thankful that i have finally reached home..which only means i can rest..=)*Yesa!* feeling so dead i think because this coming wednesday is the drill competition..pressure is UP..for the past 3yrs..my cca group have been winning..and,i'm sure if they can win the trophy again this time round..But i'm praying that they will do their best and give their best shot on wednesday itself..i'm praying for all of u my sj babies...=)) honestly,i'm sitting in front of the computer,searching for songs and resting my mind i guess..??

A BIG HUG to deq Nurull..=))for the songs u gave..=))Sayang adeq..!!=))

WhiteChocolate have sth to say to..!!
diL tWiN!!

*twin twin..i know u have a knee injury..and i feel for u twin..i mean,i'm still having my knee injury still aft mths..and i hate the feeling of being restricted in my daily activities..i can just imagine with ur injury..but hey,dun have the feeling of being useless kies twin..take good care of urself and i believe that you can slowly resume back to ur daily activities..just that,no soccer for you for the time being alrights twin..?i'm always here for u twin..take care kies my dear twin..=))

Survey..=P

8:53 PM / 1st Story

Ouhkouhk..i got this from my dearest deq nurul..

So..here it goes..=))

1. The person who tagged you is: Deq Nurull!

2. Your relationship with him/her: my adeq..=))

3. Your 5 impressions with him/her:-

-sweet!

-friendly.

-CUTE..=))

-Loving!=))

-bestest adeQ=)!

4. The most memorable thing that he/she had done for you: She talked to me and told me to see the doc..

5. The most memorable words that he/she had said to you: erm.."sayer sayang awk lah kakak..!!*

6. If he/she will become your lover, you will: take many2 pics with her..=))

7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she will have to improve on will be: Erm..dunnoe..

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: i dun want to be enemies with her..

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason being will be: like i said b4..no enemy with her..

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: GREEN TEA..*Wink to deq nurull*

11. Your overall impression of him/her is: SWEET & CUTE gurl=))

12. How do you think people around you feel about you:wait!is she malay or chinese..?

13. The character you love of yourself is:eerm..wad do u think?

14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is: temper..?

15. The most ideal person you want to be:the mothers in my families..so loving..=))

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people:

#1.yanah adeq..

#2.hannah lil sis..

#3.el sis..

#4.zira sis..

#5.deq shasha..

#6.nani deq..

#7.crystal mei..

#8.anna galgal

#9.adeline galgal

#10.ferynn galgal

17. Who is 6 having relationship with? erm..ME..?LOL..jkjk..dunnoe..

18. Is no.9 a male or a female? like duh..a female..

19. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? my god..both are female kies..

20. How about no.8 and 5? gosh..straight ppl..straight..

21. What is no.2 studying about? erm..dun know actuali..sorry sis..

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? erm..weeks ago..

23. What kind of music band does no.8 likes? korean & chinese..?

24. Does no.1 have any siblings? yesh! powerpuff girls!

25. Will you woo no.3? she's my sis..=))

26. Is no.4 single? i think so..?

27. What's the surname of no.5? she's mly..surname..?erm...

28. What's the hobby of no.4? not sure..

29. Do no.5 and no.9 get along well? erm..i'm sure..they dun know each other i think..

30. Where is no.2 studying at? sumwhere in sch institute...

31. Talk something casually about no.1? LMAO..too many words to say..

32. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? my lil galgal..

33. Where does no.9 live at? jln bahar..

34. What colours does no.4 likes? erm..i dunnoe..

35. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends? nope..they nvr met b4..

36. Does no.7 like no.2?they nvr met b4..reali..

37. How do you get to know no.2? erm..through my bro..his gf..

38. Does no.1 have any pets? no..

39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? my lil sis...=))

Finally..i've finish..=))

whitechocolateIna=))

Sunday, September 16, 2007 9:00 PM / 1st Story

EDITTING PICTURES ONCE AGAIN...=))

after creating my own blogskin..i decided to edit some more pictures of mine..i really think i like to edit pictures alot..=))

*SweetWhiteChocolate*

*Being Left Alone*

*white chocolate is here to stay..*

*Innocent White Chocolate*

*Will u shine the light on me..?*

*Feeling so lost at times*

*beauty lies within the eye of the beholder..*

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4:04 PM / 1st Story

Sunny plus slow sunday..

for the first time,i woke up "early" on a sunday morning..usually,i will only get out of bed at ard 12..bu today..it was earlier.. woke up at 10plus..but i just din feel like getting out of bed just yet..=Pso i just continue lying in bed till its abt time.. As what i will usually do during my holidays.i'll either switch on the main computer or my sis laptop..so here i am sitting in fon of my sis laptop ever since 1230nn..till this very second,i am still infront of the laptop..i wasnt online most of the time for the first time..cause i decided to create a blogskin for myself..it is not easy i must say..got stuck inbetween afew times actually..but thankfully,i've managed to finish up my very own blogskin..=)*clap clap clap* for myself..=)
well done whitechocolate..=))

as i sit and stare at the laptop..it came to my realisation that it is only 1535hrs.WOW..
Time is passing by SsssSssLooOoOoowWwwLllllyyYyyy...=P i'm already starting to yawn as i type this entry..first time ok..i'm yawning alot when i'm updating the blog..haiz..it will be a boring and slow sunday..=((
how i wish that my sis laptop the MSN is working..i wanna use msn and chat.but..apparently,i cant..(sadden)

anyway..happy HOLIDAYS to all those who are resting at home cause campus days are calling a rest..=))..

sunday/saturday

Saturday, September 15, 2007 11:59 PM / 1st Story

SUNDAY/SATURDAY UPDATE..=))

*WhiteChocolateIna says...* reached home ard 10plus cause i wen to my grandma place..we did the prayers together..and it feels different for the first time..cause for me,as one big family,we made the time for each other on this special month(Ramadhan)..without fail,i always feel happy whenever i'm with my cousins..coz they are the ones whom i truly love the most(Of coz lah..i dun have a bf..)..without them,life will be different..and and..we are planning to go out together..that is wen our pay comes in of cause..=))

Came home and started using the net..well,i think it has become habit now..even since holiday started..i've been on the net alot.and i mean ALOT..lol!!

While chatting with Deq Nurul..we made a deal..well the reason for the deal was that i kept on saying..."_____ ___ deq..=)"and...our deal was that,if i were to say it again..i owe her 1 green tea..and i agree to it..=))

i guess i am recovering..slowly..i guess..=))but i can only hope for the best right..=))

Deq Nurull..=);

Ouhk..the deal is set and its on..=))hEhe..=))

Editting picture day..=))

5:04 PM / 1st Story

EDITTING PICTURE DAY!!

*White Chocolate Ina=))*

I'm kind of glad that i dont see the bad signs this morning or afternn..I cant say that i'm fully recover..but..i hope that i do not see anymore bad signs from today onwards..cause,i want to recover and my frends want me to recover too..like wad my twin said,i cant give up..he din give up..so i mustnt give up too..and i will continue to fight to stay strong and get well..=))

Jia you marinah..!!=))

So while waiting for time to fly for me to go to my grandma house..i took some pics and editted them..i dun noe why...but it seems that editting picsture releases my stress level abit..=)) I'm glad that i have such good frens ard me..ytr,i stayed up late..chatting with my frends and twin..and i'm glad that i feel so much better now..=))btw twin gave me the name chocolate..i added in white..so i am WhiteChocolateIna now..=)

Thank u to TWINKU, nurull lil sis & zal bro..=)

Ouhk ouhk..i gtg now..have to leave for my grandma place..Btw,Slamat berpuasa to all..=)

The pics i editted are below...tag me at the tagboard of wad u think..=))

*Look into my eyes and tell Me..* *Crazyness in me..=X*
*Lost Alone II*
*Turning Up-side-down*
*Whiterose Ina*

*There's No turning back..

Whiterose*
*Incomplete Me!!*
*whiteroselady*
*LOST*
*sweet lady reen*

medical status

Friday, September 14, 2007 6:15 PM / 1st Story

MEDICAL STATUS: STILL IN THE STAGE OF RECOVERY..

(Seeing bad signs again..)

Till when will i recover..??

Slow slow slow...

12:25 PM / 1st Story

SLOW FRIDAY..

after so long..its only 1250hrs..i thought time will fly by fast enuff actually..but apparently its going slow..damn..all i can just do is to wait for time to past by..

suppose to having a meeting at yishun with the group for the upcoming project..but i told ayu that i think i cant make it..cause i'm not feeling well actually..due to my medical illness..i cant bring myself to go for the meeting..i mean,going there is no problem if i am totally well..but since this morning,i have not been feeling well..i'm sorry guys coz i'm gonna miss the first meeting..

A little update abt my medical condition..?

(apparently i thought i was healing for real..but unfortunately,it was just a hope..i woke up this morning to eat..after eating..my GIT(stomach onward) was making some kind of problem for me..to my suprise,i wasnt recovering fully yet..i was still bleeding quite badly this morning..i dun noe when i'll recover fully for real..i can only pray and hope for the best..its hard to predict when i'll get well..but..i dun noe..i can only hope and pray..?)

Sorry WECARE..i cant go for the meeting..keep me updated abt the meeting alrights..??

STH new..

Thursday, September 13, 2007 5:05 PM / 1st Story

FINALLY!!

i have finish editting my blogskin..=))

A BIG THANK YOU TO DEQ NURULL..=))

*Sayang adeq!!=))*

i guess i was so bored at home that i was itching to do change my blogskin huh..?

well..apparently i got kind of sick and stress looking at all the different blogskins available..

but thankfully..i have my adeq nurul to rescue me from stress..(hehe)

Thank u once again deq..=))

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