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Bizzare Monday Blues!!
weird enuff,i only managed to sleep at erm,3am in e morning?Why?haha..had e pain suddenly..so,in e middle of e night,i had to go n make a hot pack for myself..so,i managed to wake up only at 5am..my baby sister woke me up..so yah..today was considered e latest day so far..maybe becoz lack of sleep?i dunnoe..maybe..further more,today was Behaviuoral Science Test..!!i din study!!i managed to get some notes into my brain in e train otw to school juz now..and now,i'm hoping that i can at least pass...=)) well,today..was juz a..erm..no mood monday..like wad i'll do if i am bored,i'll take pictures..=))and more were taken,but..too lazy to upload..sorriez..=X


*A super super extremely super sotong Day plus fighting for seats day..=X*

superp super extremely super sotong day?why?haha..alot of stories lies behind this ASSESS day..anna galgal gave me e name..haha..=))

incident #01
*met up with galgal to go JE and eat breakfast..at first,we had no seat..so we decided to have a seat outside of e outlet..aft putting our bags,we went to order our food..but while deciding,we saw 2ppl finished their food..so i told galgal to sit first while i go and take out bags..so we were so called fighting for seats..haha..=P*

incident #02
*had lunch with nicky,faizal,gabriel and galgal..we were like wondering wad to eat..so,we walk ard and decided on LJS..when we reach LJS,we couldnt find any seats...!!(damE!!again??!)so we lyk erm..decided to take away e food and eat at e staircase..!!omg..haha..but it was fun..=))*

incident #03
*we were doing duty..den galgal had nth to do for e time being,so she did e "takk!" thingy..and we heard a reply..and she did again..and again we heard a reply..and aft afew times,we found out who it was..(so called mini-fight??)*

incident #04
*aft the whole event ended,galgal n me decided to go back to JP and eat dinner n discuss sum issue..so when we took e train,we saw 3 seats..then 1 lady seat at e 2nd seat..and when she saw me and galgal,she shifted to e other seat...(omg!!over seats again??!!)*

incident #05
*blurred or foolish or sotong?i dunnoe..i wanted to withdraw money b4 dinner..then..i realise..i cant withdraw money..i was like..WTH!!why cant i withdraw money..?when there is money still in my acct..i was like..so scaed..den..i realise sth..!!i kept on pressing posb currents again and again..i tried again..i press e same thing..den..i realise sth again..!!i m suppose to press posb savings...sotong rite?!!den i kept on looking at my acct amt..how come like weird leh?i was thinking and thinking..den i realise that i did not use my card to spend on anything..!!wow..!! cool or wad sia..??i was super blur sia..!!galgal was like..marinah marinah..sotong sia...LOL!!!*

incident #06
*aft walking ard,we forgot abt our discussion..=Xso we decided to go to coffee beans..den AGAIN!!we din have seats..and again..we were lyk fighting for seats..AGAIN!!aft that we eat chesse cake and tiramisu..and trust me,we filled our stomach till e fullest..hehe..it was reali reali very filling...*


today,i had duty at Jurong East..and yups..i saw afew ppL..i saw Jacko,Shaun and louise,some ex-ww ppl..and today today was FUN!!=))i had so much laughters today..even though i was stressed up..laughter is still e best medicine..=))and i bought a very nice heart stick..made a new friend juz now..too bad neither me nor my frends know his name..but he was a nick guy..who have helped us out and we helped him out..=)we worked as a team i can say?well,tmr will be another day of duty for me..where things will ge more stressing for me as e organising team will be away for e first half of e day...hMmm..getting sleepy and tired..

*GooD niTes ppL..=)* HAPPENING YET DISSAPOINTED FRIDAY!!

Part 1 of 270707=)
*alot did happened today i muz say..well,today had a duty for youth club..and wow..e t-shirt is ultra nice..=)trust me..Super nice e design..erm!!lyk as per normal,me with my picture taking fever...haha...i took loads of pictures with my frens..well,i wun upload all of coz..=Pand i had fun doing e duty..tmr will still go and do e duty..=)hAha..sure take many3 more pictures..=) hAhA..!!aft that i had to leave for my sec sch..erm..i spend afew bucks for cab ride..so yah..and when i reached my sec sch..i felt(OMG!!i missed alot of ppl...=D)hAha..and i saw my randy bro and adeq huzaimie..=)so long nvr see my adeq and bro..had alot of fun and laughters with them..=)and finally..!!i have my adeq no..=)and aft that,my adeq had to leave first...so yah..aft that..i dun know why..me and bro went..erm..crazy abit?or shd i say we had ALOT of fun Laughing..and i was lyk..laughing till tears flow..hAha..so yah..u can imagine how much i was laughing..can say that i was lughing my ass off..hAha..den me,bro,JJ and 1 more ex-ww was laughing..WHY?coz... Taufiq told us to tuck-in our shirt..Like WTH right?we graduated already and u want us to dress up like as if we are still a student in e sch..so,me,taufiq n bro was like laughing and talking abt sum stuff..*

Part 2 of 270707=/
*OMG!! i dun noe wad to say actuali..i juz feel so dissapointed..i cld still rmb e last day..telling my juniors wad i prayed and hope and wished for them..but aft today,i realised that it was..juz a dream for me to see my juniors do well..maybe i had a feeling that it was achievable..but aft today,i'll juz give up e dream and leave it in their own hands..all i can say is that...i wish all of u all e best and do well..dun give up hope on urself my juniors..i admit i was dissapointed..but,i want u to do ir very best...take care to all to my juniors....=(*




OkoK..!!
today will be alot of posting of pics below..=)

back to today..
lets jus say that it is not our fault that A SMALL piece of paper at one hided corner,we have to pay $$..it like..wad the.....!!i'm telling you..Honestly speaking,i'll soon be saying 'financial' whenever they'll ask for money..reali sia..everyday $$ and more $$...headache sia..think wad?my job at hm print $$ izzit?it like reali wad the...!!!

enuff of $$!!!me,ayu and some ppl have volunteered to help out with the painting of the banner for the competition...and wow!!i saw alot of helping hands..=)thank u..=)

PCB lesson?was great at first..=)and b4 i forget..Our Ex-leader came back to visit or shd i say,have a 2hr lesson with us?well..anything shall be ok for me..=)so we did catherisation..and haha..loads happened..wun say..=P

okOk..i'm tired..have to edit some things..=P

*Another shot together..=)*

Proud To present to you: Ayu & Reen Design along with helpers..=)

*Thank u so much to all those who helped out with the painting of the banner today..it was really heart whelming for me and ayu to see you peeps helping us out..=)and we thank u so much..*

*To the rest of the class...i thank u SO MUCH for agreeing to split the cost of the paints among everyone..i through appreciate it MY DARLING class..=)i love u all so so much..!!=)*

Its abt time for me to get over you Mr. _________
i have loved u ever since e day u entered my heart..
and ever since then,i have never stopped loving you..
i've been through so much ever since then..
happy or sad,good or bad,joy or dissapointed,hurt or recovery..
God knows what we've been through..
i once thought of letting u know how i feel at this very moment..
but,i juz cant bring myself to say it to u..
i dun wanna lose u as a friend..lyk one of my friend told me..
"one day u'll get over him..but u'll rmb him for a lifetime..as he made and left such a big impact in ur life.."

its juz like one of those puzzle that i cant handle in my own hands..i leave it up to God and Fate to decide..till e day comes,i love u in silence still..

never been so in love with any class..but for once,i love my class so much..!!=)

JR0601D,YOU GUYS ROCKS!!!=)

Honestly....

*all these while,in silence,till this very day...e feeling for u have always been growing..seriously speaking,i did try to get over u..trust me,it was lyk countless times..and believe me,i have nvr succeeded..not even once..time and time again,i cant get over e feelings i had for u in me..i dun noe y..but e feelings i have for u have been non-stop growing in me..as e days goes by,it grows..weird u may say?i dunnoe..thats juz how my heart is feeling..ur smile,ur face,ur voice,ur name..was nvr once erased from my heart,mind and soul..

i could still rmb how we started our frenship on e first day of sch..
and i cld rmb how things changed inbetween..
the memories we had each day,
the special moments,
the laughters we had,
the joy we shared,
the converstaions we had day or night,
the closeness that we had,
the care we showed,
the sad times we when through together,
the pictures we took together..
the time we went through the hard times..
evrything that has happened ever since e day my heart belongs to u..
are still so fresh in my mind and heart..

now,i truly understand e reason why its juz so hard for me to get over u..you may not know how much and how deep i care and love u..i dun noe..

i leave it up to faith and God..juz one thing,i love u still... GREAT SATURDAY!!!=)
today,i woke up early cause have to come back to campus for nurses day celebration..i din feel like going actually..but what the hack?juz go lah k..so yah..i left with my sis together..so i reached sch ard erm..8?sum where dere..my and my frens was kind of worried as we din see many ppl from our class at e cafe..so we were like.."erm...where are they?"soon enuff,mummy called and say to go up to e auditorium..so yah..one by one came in..and mummy left me in-charged of e attendance of e class..*yada yada yada..*sometime later,we were practically distracted by e camera..hehe..=)so yah,we took LOADS of pictures..as in seriously..ALOT of pics..=)*i juz love my class..!!=)*aft so long,i was that familiar face..my heart smiled..seeing that smile,that look,hearing that voice..once again,my heart woke up..saying in silence"i missed u.." saw the lost lost missed lecturers..our father when we were in yr1 and our deary mother in yr 2.1campus..took pics of coz..=)

e celebration started erm..ard9plus..ended ard 12..?alot of performance were held..most were fun and enjoying..but..erm..its not e same w/o hiphop dance..haiz..BUT!!we had alot of fun during our frends performance and Esp during e finale dance item..lyk every other year,we will do i TWIST dance..so cute..hehe..that is when everyone..well,most of us became hyperactive abt e dance...=)after the whole celebration ended..we were suppose to be sitted..but as per usual,my class was lyk hyperactive..we din..we decided to take class pictures..=)it was great actuali..we even took class pictures with our long missed our deary ex-leader..*wow..those were e days huh?*we even had pics taken with our dear 2.1 mothers..both of them came to our class area..*WOW!!they love us still..?Awwww..we love them tOo...=)*basically,my class was busy taking pictures...hAha..=)LOADs of fun today..=)

and stupid of me..or shd i say silly or me??i actuali had a fall..on e road..!!OMG!!i was lyk so paiseh sia..but wth..i got up and i was limping..!!arGh!!and i bruised both my knees badly=( haiz..other than that,i'm reali happy abt today's celebration in campus..
*ur smile,ur voice,ur face..will always be in my heart..ur name is still engraved in my heart..i truly miss u..* TRASHY THURSDAY!!

why do i say trashy?for some reason..
*if you say that you din saw,i wun blame u..you say u din know,wad do u take me for? you din know that it was us,do u take me for a fool?you say we din call u,wad?were u blind folded or wad?!for god sake..we were lyk sitting in front of u..like duh!cant u move ur butt?WTH..yah3..i hv to respect u..lyk whatever ok..u can just walk out lyk that and say its not ur fault..u can do it to others,but not me..u can give others ur blur look,not me alrite?if u want e respect from me,u better earn it.coz i dun respect ppl who juz want e respect..earn it if u want it!*

stayed back in sch late,to do e design for e banner..and trust me..ayu drawing is so so so cute..=)hehe..=)and for once in my life..i have so many assignment in my hand..i have e namelist that i hv yet to finish..i have to finish at e end by TODAY...i have an upcoming banner design to finish.. i have e duty to design e finalise e gift for our dear speacial lecturer..


still blogging?yah..i dunnoe..i m suppose to finish up alot of things by tonight..but i'm still blogging..=(i guess i shd start huh?OKOK!!i'll start...=)*bleaH!!*

**Terkadang masa..menikam dan terus berlalu pergi..Meninggal kan sisa..dan membuka seribu luka di hati..Walau ku cuba..hindarkan sesal di dada..Kesilapan lalu..menghantui diri ku...
Segala yang indah..sering menemani ruang sepi ku..Senyum dan tawa mu..masih jelas terbayang di mata ku..Kini semuanya..menjadi kenangan silam..Sesal hati dirundung..kecewa..Aku tak pernah menduga..Begini hebatnya..duka lara bila berakhirnya cinta..Mengapa sukar untuk ku melupakan mu..Namun mudahnya kau..membenci diri ini...
Apalah gunanya..ku terus mencari kesilapan diri..Sedang kau tak pernah..ingin mengerti perasaan di hati..Pernah kah kau rasa..hangatnya genangan..Air mataku yang tak mungkin mengalir..** **Living in a world filled with troubles,mixture of life,pain,suffering,sadness,pain,complications..
besides all this at e back of my mind,my life is also filled with happiness,great frens,trust,smiles and laughters..
All i can say is that life has been Simplistic Yet Complicated still...sad huh?yah..

apparently,i dun reali know wad to do..besides studying,my life is mixed up..turned ard.. jumbled up..its going hay-wire..i dunnoe wad is e exact feelings that are running through my brain and my heart..why?coz i'm complicated..omg..i'm juz so stressed up..if only sum1 out dere can help me to get out of e mess........**

Assisgnments that i hv YET to finish?

1. YCBD finalise namelist..(latest by fri..!!)
2. RCBD banner design(tmr staying back in sch..)
3. RCBD namelist(by..erm..tiz week?)
4. Class Timetable=P(haha..god knows when..=P)
5. Start revising my studies(better start soon!!)

if u dun care,dun act as if u care..juz leave..
its not right for me to be feeling wad i am feeling...
i dun wish to say it out here..but i'm juz so mixed up deep inside..
i'm already so stressed up with my studies..
and yet,problem after problem..haiz..
i'm juz so not in e mood..

*i've known u since god knows when...?* SO-SO MONDAY!!!
woW weE..!!i dunnoe wad to say abt today..good?bad?i dunnoe..its a mix apparently..=P
woke up late..Bad=X
aft shower had migraine..bad=X
today got e earlier train..good=)
forgot my homework..bad=X
Stomachache..bad=X
had a terrible migraine in MLT..bad=X
have yet to sort out e duty list..bad=X
did a colourful discussion with frens..good=)
had a great lunch with frens..good=)
take new pic with frens...good=)
learnt alot in behavioural science class..good=)
met mdm low to decide e elective..so-so=p
decided to stay in oncology..omg!ok lah=)
Saw mdm woo(god mom)for SIMs..good=)
know tt tmr S&W will sux!!bad=X
saw my ex and liza...good=)
has alot of flash back and catching up with him..good=)
found out mom & sis not feeling well..bad=X

haiz..i dunNoe..i'm juz PURELY LOST!!!
sum1 out dere..pls pls PLS help me...='(

**ever since 2002..=)**

**Natasya & marinah..**

**JR0601D...=)**

**My circle of friends..=)**

had a meeting at hsa in e aftnn abt e YCBD..it was an interesting one for me actuali..as it reali made me realise alot abt e surroundings..not many turn up today,but its ok..my task?redo e list and divide them into shifts..how?thats for me to know and for u to find out..*kiak kiak..*aft that..me,galgal,nick,zal and ben decided to go out and hv lunch cum dinner...=Pso we decided to go to vivocity for our meal...and yups..4 of us bought food from e same food stall..except for nick..aft that we decided to walk2 and but dounuts..=)weeEee!!and in vivo,dounuts simply means...hEhe...u know what i'm referring to rite..??yes yes..e one and only one...hahA!!i juz simply love e dounuts dere..its like heaven...=)wanna know wad we bought..??here's a pic to make u drooll....=)

wahahaha...!!=)i love dounuts...=)

well..apparently,we sat at e stair for some time actuali..and gosh..!!we took alot of pics..esp me wif my galgal..=)nid i explain?nah!!pics tell a thousand words..=)

aft resting for sooOooo long..we decided to head back..as me n galgal hv to go back to her work place for a short while..aft that..we took e train heading home...while waiting for e train..galgal told me.."eh..lyk sum1 familiar..but who ah?"den i turned ard and look...OMG!!its my adeq..=) hehe..its been long since i last saw him actuali..and WOW!!he is so goood looking in person..hAha..*omg..i actuali said tt my adeq is gd looking?oOopss!!hAha*but seriously,he is good looking..he have changed so much..we did some catching up while waiting for e train..and i m still so happy tat i met my adeq today,coz i have been wanting to meet him one day..=)hEhE..=)

alrites alrites..i shall end here...=)i'm tired..!!!=P*gDniTes pEePs..=)*

"ONLY TIME WILL TELL..."
that are e exact words that is running in my head right now..honestly,i m praying hard for alot of things..like what i told some of my friends,i'm just so simplistic yet complicated..i may look simply simplistic to you in e face..but deep down in me,i'm splitting up..getting more complicated..my moods in sch have been going right and left top and bottom..i have been feeling weird ever since sch started and trust me,i felt more weird when alot of things happened in sch..wad am i suppose to do?

honestly speaking,i dunnoe..i can only can pray and hope that time will tell and answer the questions that is running in my heart at this very moment..no1 knows wha i am feeling cause i never once did tell anyone abt what my feelings and emotions are..you can say that i am wearing a mask in sch and at home..i only took off e mask when i am all alone in my dark room..everynight,i'll be praying for the better..hoping that one day,my heart will be feeling much better and reali take a good look at the world ard me..

i'm stuck in such an ugly situation.."follow ur heart,listen to everysingle beat of ur heart.."those are e words that my frens told me..and definately,its easier said than done..i dunnoe how to say this withouot leaking anything out..but..here it goes alrite?i'm stuck in r/s..my frend told me"reen,take things real slow wif wad u r facing..if u can,slow things down in ur life..u r already so stressed up..no1 may understand u at e current situation..and dun expect any1 to understand u fully reen..if u wanna put an end to ur current r/s,make ur move fast..coz as e days goes by,i can see a difference in u reen..i cant help u much in solving..but i want to see e reen that i used to see..take care.."

Seriously,i dun wanna hurt any1 in this situation..but instead,i m hurting myself internally..i'm stressed up with e situation that i m in..i wanna go with my heart or my brain..i dunnoe..at this stage that i am going,and with e rate that i live life,i might put a stop to things..i wanna go slow in this matter..its my final year in my course and trust me,i reali nid to score well this time round..my career is at stake.. "its not tat i dun love you..i guess,i really need space to recover e lost me..it hurts me saying this..but i truly hope that u understand e reason y i wanna end..i'm sorry..i'm sorry for all e hopes that i've given to you abt our r/s..klau takdir izinkan,kita akan bertemu satu hari nanti..i'm very sorry..being friends is all i can accept from u now..i'm sorry for making this relationship a short one..take care..you're a great guy..take care..my fren.."

To sum of my frens who i hv hurt,i'm sorry..allow me to heal fully..and i will make things better between us..i'm juz so very sorry..my dear frens out dere,u know me well enuff till u actuali gave me space..i trult appreciate it..and i thank u for not being angry for e hurts i've done..u'll see me recover..u will...

but for now...

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