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TO MY JUNIORS!!!

Saturday, June 30, 2007 7:49 PM / 1st Story

i was juz browsing through my frends blog..and i am suprised by some of their entries..here is wad they said..

*although is tiring but it was fun!reali!we had put in lots of effort and positive-ness in our ftdrills!haha..i learn lot from mdm marinah and sir lionel!sir lionel had thought me in timing..haha..become a timer is reali fun!wahahahaha..i can't wait for the next training! ps.to all ________is fun working and doing ftdrills with u all..i have lots of fun!we must have the courage,positive-ness,determination n faith!okies!okies!i love u all lah!!haha..ps.and to mdm marinah and sir lionel,thankies for helping us with ftdrills for the past two days! thankies! i sure eu that we all will do better for the next the next training! i'm looking forward to it! hehe,once again thankies!* (anoynomous1)
*Its fcking fun even though it was fcking tired during ftdrill practice.Yes,we sec2 improved alr! WEE...!!we are so onto getting first fer footdrill competition again!so we got to train super hard.Overall ytd i'm fcking love it!* (anoynomous2)
*we will strive for our best no matter win or lose..we confirm muz put in our best effort or strike for e best..i dont mind our position..e thing is our effort and our fun..today training is fun right?so we will enjoy it till e end..and MAID!dont eat too much chilli ok and WE WILL MAKE U CRY!!!* (anoynomous3)
*&&i love the way today training starts, && ends..*(anoynomous4)

(a reply to all of them...=D)
reading all ur entries,really made me moved to tears..(see!!u ppl make me cry already..)cause i'm really proud of ever single of of u..i'm really happy that all of u are motivated and all charged-up for the competition..=)honestly,u ppl made my day..i'm glad that u ppl want to continue to work hard and do well.. frankly speaking,i dun care if u ppl dont win..as long as i see effort,ur determination..i'm happy for everyone of u..lyk i said b4,believe in urself coz i believe in u..i know i can get strict n make u ppl tired with punishment or with the drill itself..but its not that i want to distroy ur mood or purposely make u tired or anything..i juz want ur stamina in drills to get better by the day..i want to see u succeed one day..coz i can see ALOT of potential in everyone of u..trust me,i nvr want to hurt u ppl..i want u to be stronger..that y training was serious most of the time..and i know one day,u'll know exactly why i want the best for all of u.. looking forward for the next training?i'm amazed..i'm REALLY glad that all of u have the positive spirit in u..
NOW..i know that u'll see me cry..coz i have faith and i believe in everyone of u..that i'll be moved to tears with ur positive attitude and ur determination..Rmb sth my dears ok?Even if i m strict and being fierce,i'll always be loving EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U..!! *sniff sniff*=)

JuniorJuniorJunior....=)

Friday, June 29, 2007 8:19 PM / 1st Story

SUPER.PLUS.ULTRA.PLUS.DAMN.TIREDNESS.!!!

today was lyk a super tiring day..well..apparently i woke up early juz to go back to my secondary sch to help out with my junios in their attire etc..=Pafter that,i wen off..(lyk DUH!u dun expect me to stay in e sch till aftnn rite?)and so i went home and rest...and after i woke up,i realise sth..i lose my voice..lyk wth rite?so sudden one..=Pso yah..i came for training late.=Psorry guys..so i was lyk voiceless for awhile..but aft sumtime..guess wad?my voice is back..=)WeeeEeEEeee~~miss my voice..(bleah!!)lol!!so..from there..training starts..well..i'm glad that my junior,fir,came down to help me out..*thank goD!*as time runs..e intensiveness of the training got more serious..i cant help it but to say that things will change and the seriousness will definately change alot..coz today's training was a stepping stone for them..

a message for my dear juniors...=)

*i know i din tell them face to face or directly to them..but i want them to know so many things.. i want them to believe in themself..i'm not asking for much..but i want them to prove others out there wrong..i want them to shine in their own way and tell others that they can make a difference..i want them to be strong and fight the challenges that they face..if they give up hope in themself,do u think others will believe in u?will others have hope or believe in u once u give up hope on urself?i've ben through alot of experiences during my secondary sch days..and trust me,i've learnt alot..thats why i m helping and advicing my juniors now when i still have the time with them..they may not take watever i tell them seriously..but one day,they'll realise that i've told them before..my time training them is really very little already..and i cant affort to lose anymore time with them coz i'm running out of time..i dun know how to tell them all these..but..i realise hope that one day..they'll learn things without me.. *

but seriously,i start to realise that i have grown emotionally attached to me juniors..i dun reali know why..but..i feel that they are all important to me..all of them are lyk my little brothers n sisters..=)i dun mind spending my entire holiday with them..i dun mind training them..i juz want them to grow stronger and believe in themselves..

i want them to be stronger..believe in urself my dears..coz i believe in u...

Tired to e maX!!

Thursday, June 28, 2007 10:36 PM / 1st Story

tiredtiredtired...!!

i'm just so tired now..juz had a long day with some of my juniors in their sch..did alot of training..well..i muz say that they are very determined(my juniors i mean)why i say that they are determined?well..lets juz say that they are more willing to stay back n practice for e drill comp..i'm impressed with their positive attitude...=)well done..=)hehe..i dun mind tiring myself till e day i cant take it anymore..as long as my juniors want me to help..i dun mind reali..as long as i m free of coz..they wiill definately have my support behind them..and to believe it or not,i have been treating them drinks after e long and hard training day..lol..!!but not for long..haha...=Pso..i think i will even more tired tmr..coz i'll be going over to sch in e morning..den i'll go hm..aft that..in e aftnn..i'll drop by once again for training..*yiak!!i'll be dead tired..=P* well..today..i'm reali happy for my juniors who turned up..even with e new baby ard,he is learning fast..=)*tats very gd=)*at e end of the day,i can tell that they have improved..its reali a smile for me in e heart,seeing my juniors lyk tt..=)weeeEee~~

Lets call it a day alrite..=)Gdnites ppL..=)

JuniorsJuniors..

Wednesday, June 27, 2007 8:07 PM / 1st Story

Today woke up early..i din want to wake up early at first..but..wad e heck?i juz got out of bed and watch tV=Phehe..so yah..decided to go down to my sec sch to help out with my juniors.. after so long,finally i get to see my deary juniors..=)*miss them so much!!* got to meet up with my meis,di,adeq and many more..=)Weeeee~~miss them LOADs..but i still miss many more..=( for e first time after so long,i feel so dead tired after training..=(*haiz*so sad rite? but i feel that with my presence,e juniors spoke up more to me..=)welll..i have been there for then since god knows where..so yah..i juz hope that if i leave e corp one day(even though i have passed out since 2005..i'm still back..=P),they'll be able to move on and be strong.. today,i treated my juniors to drink after training..and WOW!we spoke alot aft that..we stayed back in sch n chit chatted till ard...6pluz..?i'm tired now..i wanna rest...=(

no mood...=(

Monday, June 25, 2007 3:01 PM / 1st Story

holiday season is here..and wow..for e first time,i feel so dead during the holidays..so far,i only went out for the VBD at harbour front..and the next i fell sick..!!*bleah*had a terrible migraine..couldnt get out of bed as per normal..head was spinning so badly..it lasted for lyk 2days..and god!my head is still spining abit now..=P

honestly,i dun have the mood to update my blog..so..till next time...

~marinah~

sth new..=)

Thursday, June 21, 2007 2:38 PM / 1st Story

~~~~~~~weeEeeeEeeeEeEeeeee~~~~~

finally..i have finish renovating my bloggy..

well..nth to do during the holidays,so i juz edited n created my very own..=P

haha..got to say holidays wun be tat relaxing aft all huh?

have loads of plans lined up..=P

*goSh!!*busy busy busy..

here i m blogging and calling ppl abt their duty at e same time..?

how can i actually focus on wad i m saying?beats mE!!lol..

but really..things ahve changed alot..

i dunnoe..?juz alot...

but one thing i'm glad..attachments are over n campus awaits..

stressing but wth..holidays first alrite..no thinking abt campus days yet..=P

Enjoys..!!

Renovation in progress..

Wednesday, June 20, 2007 5:23 PM / 1st Story

juz edited my blog..nth much..sth have alot more to edit actuali..juz no time..shall still be updating my bloogy soon....

BLOG UNDER RENOVATION...

Leave a msg at my tag board alrites...i get back asap..=)

Coming to an end..

Thursday, June 14, 2007 5:59 PM / 1st Story

its been ages since i last updated my blog..been busy with attachment and have been dead tired ever since..i dun noe wad to say but juz pure tiredness..no one can actuali tell how tired i feel.. well..thankfully,today is the last day at e institute..i feel happy as my days of waking up earli will come to and end..but at the same time,i feel sad to leave my patients behind..coz some of them are reali great patients..i can only hope that all of them recover n get well soon..=) soon aft this,will be holiday season..YESA!! finally,e long awaited holiday is here..gonna relax n get ready for campus..fast enuff,year 2 will be ending in 6mths..and e time will fly faster then ever..believe it or not..

i dunnoe why i dream of you..i thought things were put to an end since then..but..why?

SHUT UP!!

Tuesday, June 05, 2007 9:07 PM / 1st Story

i honestly dun know wad u are up to..good or bad?i have no idea..i'm juz hoping that u came for e right reasons..coz if ever,evil things are running in ur mind,u dun know wad u r in for..i still hate one of u..u know who you are..be aware..be very aware..watch ur back and get a life..i dun need u anymore..u'll never get wat u used to have..u have lost everything that u used to have..SorRy!!

Its not working..!!

8:35 PM / 1st Story

i dun seem to find the mood to work nowadays..i dunnoe why..i feel so bored n dead..i have to wake up as earli as 4am..leave house as earli as 5am..juz to walk to the mrt station..i dun care..i wanna take the 242 bus tmr..juz imagine..i m working morning shift this whole week..i so sadden..i dunnoe..i know tt in e ward,there's nth much to do..no tpr,no assisted shower,no i/v therapy..NTH!!i'm juz so dead..i need to do sth..i cant juz stand or sit ard with the patient..i truly treasure my days in e ward at e hosp..i miss the ward..i miss..Oops..hAha..=PhMm..i'm juz counting down to e final day..!!

HATE this!!

Sunday, June 03, 2007 12:54 PM / 1st Story

well3..where should i start?

Just what is your problem?we are happy e way we are now n here u are,coming in to destroy us..wad do u take us for huh?ppl dun nid us anymore,so why shd we find a reason to be sad n feel tt sth is missing?i dunnoe y u find it so hard to accept e fact tt we are happy e way we are?why muz u make us burn into fire once again?!i dun get u..

*ppl out dere wanna move on without us..dun nid us in e picture anymore..*

So i dun see the point for u to start a fire once again?!i dun see e reason why u cant see us happy together..you want us to feel missing?to feel sad?OMG!!u wish!!i dun think u can make me change my thinking..i m not a kid who can be ordered ard..i have grown up and i have my own mind n brain..i cant be forced to do something that i do not want to do..u cant make me and u will never make me..

i dun get you at all..and believe me that u are living life in the filled with denial..here u are siding with the opposite side..i dun care who you are siding alrite?One thing i hate abt you is that u want us to ask for forgiveness and say that we are sorry just because you are not happy with us being happy.its really bulls**t!!! Its even more ****ing bull***t that you want your own mother to ask for your forgiveness??!! *#!#&^%!!you hate to see us living life happily rite?u want to screw our life rite?you think that you are always right huh?you think that we are in the wrong?you think that we dont have feelings?you think that we dun feel hurt?you think that you and your family are the perfect and good family?think back about your life..think what have your family and siblings done for you in the past?even if things change in the future days, TRUST me..that u'll never..i repeat..NEVER get the same trust,never get the same respect,never get the same impression i have on you..i know that you are living life in a world filled with denial..one day,when the walls of your denial breaks,you'll see..!!

*Family ties are strong than anything in this world..once u lose the trust,the respect and the impression,things will never be the same again..Even if the world forgives you,Mark my word!!i WILL NEVER forgive you..aft what you have done..aft what you have said..aft whatever your actions is,do not..i repeat DO NOT expect me to forgive you..!!*

Last day in Med Ward..=)

Friday, June 01, 2007 11:10 PM / 1st Story

Some pics i took wif my dear frens...=)

well3...guess wad?my days in e ward is finally over..!!fast huh?yeay!!i'm lyk so happy..finally i dun have to go to a working place where i dun lyk e environment..yes dere was some staff tt i trult treasure n cherish..but other then these few staff,i dun reali lyk working dere...oOps!!i got to say tt till now,i still miss my previous ward..esp e staff dere..dey r so much more loving n caring..=)today's work??erm..SLACK!!LOL...haha..din do much..Y?Last day at work..lyk DUH!!but i'm proud iof myself!!my skills r finally done n over wif..=)yeah!!=)

aft work..wen to meet one of my close SN..=)hehe..miss him sia..long time nvr see him already..but he still had work to do..=(i understand..=)so yah..aft tt,me n my darlz wen back home..reach hm..i saw my sis..!!=)she's back..!!=)miss her so much..hEhe...