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VesakDayCelebration...=)
*my wif my cozins..*
Yesa!!tmr will n shall be my last day at e ward..aft tt..destination changed..=)weeEE!~super happy..but at e same time..i'm scared actuali..facing wad i m facing..i dunnoe if i stand up on my feet..i dunnoe..i feel so complicated in me..i nid help..
met up with my cozins n relatives..we had a gathering..=)Love em so much..=)took many pics..had many memories..=)hehe..shall show u e pics one day alrites?hEy!!i finally have a pic with my deary niece..=)love her so much..=)
so summarise it all..i'm juz pure lazy to actuali update fully...=Psorry...=P
tell me?
tell me wen was e last time i actuali updated my bloggy?erm..at least a week ago?wow..tts long.. well..simply said,i have been ULTRAPLUSSUPER busy with my attachment..gosh!!my skills are lyk killing me internally..i'm lyk climbing up e wall already..WHY?coz its super stressful!!argh!! i can go crazy man lyk tiz..seriously..CRAZY!!tell me wad i shd do?its lyk..so killing me n my frens..all rushing for skills now..and juz look e environment ard me in e ward...tell me how not to get stressed up?juz tell me..i'm lyk getting sick so easily now..and trust me,i haben been able to really take good care of myself ever since attachment..i've been getting sicker n sicker by e day..either through migraine or gastric or my git..i hate being sick..!!argh!!i dun reali tok to anyone abt my feelings..juz me n my bloggy..or i'll turn to sum1..but i hardly do tt..
i'm no so sure of wad i m feeling deep down inside?confused n tired?YES i am..tell me wad exactly i shd do..i dunnoe..i'm so lost..i need someone to reach out to me..tell me wads wrong n wads right..i can no longer tell e difference..
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wen out earli in e morning..juz to do CIP at metta home..wow..!!it was so sleepy for me..coz i'm lyk so tired..waking up earli on sun was weird..=Pbut yah..aft tt..me n jannah wen to meet up with a fren of ours..we wen bedok sempang to eat..wow..!!eat till i fell so full..=P but thanks for e treat..=)it was great..=)aft tt,we wen over to PS,to watch pirates..=)weeeee~~it was a good show man..but i admit!!i fell aslp afew times in e theather..=Psorry!!
so aft tt..i had to go home straight!!it was lyk 9pm..and i m in e morning shift e next day..
and suprisingly..i was sleeping soundly in e train..while standing!!haha..thanks to my fren..for supporting me throughout e journey in e train..coz i din fall..i was being supported by my fren..=P so paiseh sia...but thanks..!!=)thanks for everything...!!!=)
**tell me wad i shd do..i need a helping hand..a kind soul out dere...**
MsReen..??
wiShiNg mY aDeLinE gaLgaL a haPpY sWeEt 17tH bUrfdAy..=)maY aLL ur hOPEs n dReAms cOmE tRue..=)oNe wEek haS gOnE..2 moRE wEeKs LeFt..8 dAys LeFt fOr mE tO coMpLetE mY attachment skills..haiz..stressed up!!have loads to do.but so little time left..sad rite?haiz..having nite duty on next thurs..wow..super super stress sia..dun noe wad to do exactly for nite duty..nvM!will ask ard..i know who to ask..hehe..been real bored at home..not going out juz to relax myself coz..lack of sleep ever since attachment started..hmm..counting down to e days for IMH..hehe..sure extra tired..finally,my kakak is back..=)glad she and abg made it back safely..=)reali miss em..been in a dilemma nowadays..i dunnoe wad to feel..i dunnoe whether wadever i m feeling is right or wrong..i wonder..i'm juz hoping tt sumone out there will help me feel better..i nid assurance..i hate myself for feeling this way..i know tt its not right..but..can anyone blame me for feeling this way..??i dunnoe..i juz have to wait and see..??i know i have to move on..but its reali hard..maybe one day i'll get over u and find someone new,who will stay by myside always....??i dunnoe..
blooger is up..!!
Finally!!blogger is alright..=)Alot of things have been happening ard me actuali..too many actuali..i dun reali feel tat its been a great week..seriously..nope..but mothers day celebration..?i couldnt have asked for more..coz e love tat was surrounding us was great and strong..loving my aunts n grandma every minute of e time..=)having another gathering soon enuff..=)had feelings for u..and i still do..i can oni admire u from far..i wish i could tell u how much u mean to me..but i know i cant..but i'm glad tat once in my life,i've met u..attachment life?erm..oK??erm..i dunnoE how to say..but juz oK..reali getting stressed up nowadays..still have skills to complete..!!argh!!i nvr once liked attachment esp if it comes to skills..*bleah!!*still have like erm..9 more days in ward..*yiaKz!!*so little time left but so many skills left..=Psux!!hmMm..aft tat will be a relaxing oNe..=)wEee...~~counting down but still stressed up!!!!
moTheRs dAy..=)
WeEeeEe~
HaPPy mOtHErs dAy tO aLL..=)
haD a faMiLy gaTheRinG juZ nOw..tO ceLebRaTE mOtHErs dAy wiTh mY aUnts n gRanDmoTheR..it was reali fun n great..had so much fun with my cozins and aunts..=)this is wad i call Family Love..=)i love em so much..
changing to a new ward tmr..haiz..i dun wanna leave e ward..i mean..i dun hav e heart to leave e ward..so sad..i love e ward so much..plus e ppl dere..hEhe..i can oni stay in touch with them..
above all..wishing all mothers a happy mothers day..=)
Many Had Happened...
honestly,i dun reali have e mood to update my bloggy..but aft browsing through..things start popping into my mind..
recently,an incident stuck many hearts in my sch..esp 0601..many shed tears..sth tat no one could have ever thought..we have lost sum1 close to our hearts..sum1 who was dere for his students..guiding us through the hard times of bio..i reali respected him alot..being e one who guided me through hard times..yah..i reali do miss him..e days in campus will never be e same again...=(
aNot so called incident..
things are different now..carefree..=)i dun nid u actuali..i once tot tat u'll understand..but..NAH!! i guess wrong..forget it k?i juz take it tt u nvr once came into my life again...
aNot thinking..??
i saw u once again aft god knows how long..seeing u once again made my mind and heart have many flash back..many sweet and memoriable..but yet,behind this memory,bitter times struck my heart e most..i reali wonder y i met u..aft moving on with life without u..with juz a split second seeing ur face..it made me have a big impact in my heart..seeing u..*oh gosh*it reali made me think..how deeply in love i was with u..and how much it hurts me now..blinded by love? yes i guess..but now..honestly..i m still trying to move on without u..hard to admit to many tat my feelings for u still exist in my heart..i reali hope things change for e better..at least..??
i leave it all in God's hand..
i had enuff already..i dun wanna hide anymore..i'll juz move on for real now..i dun wanna be hurt anymore..and if u try,u'll see..i hate being in this situation and not knowing wats going on ard me..if u wanna declare it,go ahead..if tats how u wanna play e game,i'll play along with u alrites? suit urself..i wun entertain this type of attitude anymore..bring it on..i dun nid ppl lyk u ard me..i have those who i care and love for..so..be gonE...!!
Enuff..!!
take it tat i m expressing myself k?i dun wanna go detailed abt it..but..i juz wanna say it..happy or not..its my blog..so..accept it..a week that i will always remember..too many emotions arise in me..feeling troubled..feeling hurt..feeling down..feeling lost..feeling anger..feeling frustrated..feeling sick..feeling irritated..a week tat i wish tat will nvr happen again..coz i had MORE THAN ENUFF for a week..*wad do u take me for?sum1 juz to occupy ur time?it tat is ur reason,scram!!i nvr expected u to be lyk this..not in a thousand years..but here u r,proving to me juz how impt i m to u..take ur time and decide alrite?tell me wen u r ready..coz i m not a fool..*
haiz..
kK...summary of today..??
not a good day actuali..
gD thing coz rafian burfday..
but...
many things happened..
sad and flash back in time..
i injured my ankle..
sister sick..
haizZ..