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MaRinA iS Me!
Just Turned 20 on 18Aug. . LEO BABY=D
PAP//Xingnan Pri//Westwood Sec//ITE SiMei AHS//Hospital
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=) seems to me tat things are much betta now...=) thank god..=) dun hv to so stressed out abt tiz 'matter'..good to see tat thhings are working out fine n well now in e matter...=) juz so glad tat things are betta now..=) gtg now..class starting soon..=P keke... dun reali noe whats happening to me now..i mean..i juz cant help it but to feel so down n at my lowest spirit..ppl ard me may c me smile and laugh..but honestly..e prob in my life are still unsolved..its easier said den done honestly..take a look..life is harder for me now..thou i may be dere to encourage my frends to study,help them out,smile or laugh wif em..but deep inside i dun noe wat i'm feeling..i'm so confused..its as if my world is in a roller coaster..

probs tat i once thought will be solved turn ard..from betta to worse??i din expect things to be so complicated n brain cracking..honestly,i'm stuck in e middle..i dun noe how to make things betta..campus days r coming to an end soon enuff..yet things are unsolved n left hanging..a matter tat could hv been solved ytr..but instead..haizZ..it got worse..i reali..honestly dun noe wat to do animore...they being in my position..3 frens of mine..n now..things start erupting n cracking..how do u expect me to be as normal as i could..?its lyk i m stabbing my own heart whenever i think about tiz matter..it juz hurts so much..its not easy to put myself together..i reali dun noe wat to do animore...*sumone out dere, help me please...*

iTs easier said den done huh??true enuff tat it takes alot of courage to actuali move on..n honestly..i dun noe wat i'm feeling rite now..i juz hate being in tiz position..trapped in a world full of traps, unhappiness,puzzles, mysteries n probs..e feeling is jus so hurting n painful..i juz wanna find my happiness once again..dun noe wen..but..hoping tat e day will come..cuz i'm suffering enuff..suffering so much pain in e past..suffering still at tiz veri moment..how much longer will i be suffering..?issin't e amount of pain n suffering been enuff..?havent been all e shed tears been enuff..?much i shed tears again whenver i hv a hard n suffering time wif e prob..?i reali do hope tat e suffering n pain will be over soon enuff..

"haben been in my gd spirit tiz days..been so down n at my lowest spirit..i dun noe wat to do or how to react..but juz..being in silence or in a world of pretending...i dun noe how much longer i can stand on my feet.."

*maybe one day..you ppl out dere will c MaRiNaH faDe aWaY sLowLy..oNe day,if u rEaLisE tT e mAriNaH tAt u oNcE kNeW iS nO LonGeR aRd..i jUz wAnNa sAy tHaNkS fOr bEinG dEre fOr mE aLL tiZ wHiLe..i hOpE tAt u'LL cOntiNuE wiF uR LiFE wiF hApPinEsS n smiLe aLwAyS..wiF oR witHouT mE,nOe u'LL bE hApPy stiLL..* hiazZ...wat more can i actuali say abt mon..?but..Monday BluezZ...=P i dun noe how to say in words actuali..but..haizZ..i juz feel so down today..no exact words to describe it actuali..but..haizZ..

overslept in e train on e way..oni woke up at pasir ris..=P had to go back to tanah merah..haizZ..*tat oni shows how tired i am actuali..=P* wat can i say..but had a reali tiring week..=P

in skool..wat happened..is lyk..no words can describe e feeling tat i'm feeling inside..haizZ.. honestly..no words can eva describe e feelings tat i'm feeling..i dun noe y..but..its juz..not able to descibe..haizZ..



"no one is perfect in tiz world..but y does it seems as if dere are perfect ppl ard on tiz earth..i dun noe wat to say..and dun noe wat to do..i'm confused..trapped in a world full of darkness..its lyk a never ending darkness...one by one..e darkness comes surrounding me whenever i see rays of light entering my life..it juz seems as if i m not meant to hv real happiness..happiness do come..but dissapear so fast..juz wen i m reali n truely happy..tat happiness dissapears.. y cant i have happiness in life? i do smile..i do laugh..but were dey reali happiness,smiles n laughers..?i cant say much huh??but..hmMm..i no longer noe wat to say or do in life..it hurts.. it reali hurts whenever i m feeling tiz way..i used to think tat i will be able to find happiness...but now..i cant.. i'm juz hoping tat one day..i'll be able to find happiness..cuz i've lost my happiness.." yEaH..!bAck fRom cAmp...=)
thOu i aM tiReD..buT..hAd LoaDs oF fUn..=)
maDe lOads of new frends..=)

hAd loads of memoriable memories dere...=)
had loads of fun wif e ppl dere..and of coz Loads of fun wif my seniors..
had loads of cheering..=)
watched concert at nite..reali a fun n funky nite..=)
heard metal songs,slow songs,salsa etc..

e fun n memories i had dere..are undescribable..=)
cuz e team building game were reali encouraging..team effort n team spirit..

hmMmm..reali had loads of fun..=)
wanna thank my seniors..=) n e ppl dere..=)
esp my gropu 6..=)
*stay happy n =) always..=)* kiak kiak...
leaving for reedcross camp liao...
bubbiezZ hMm...sTayed back in skool..juz to finish up my project..=P haizZ..been staring into e comp for dun noe how long already sia..=P hmMm..had to to editing, adding etc..=Phaiz..so e tired rite now..juz feel lyk going home..but..still got some editing to do..so yah..tats all for now..?

keke...had a great day wif my cozins...=)

"meet up wif kak ayu first..(but she came late...keke...its ok..)..den meet up wif one b4 meeting e rest..waited for kak ctar n abg zee..end up we walk ard to find a place to hang out...as we walk,we took picz..as per normal lah..=)so finali meet up wif kak ctar n abg zee n burger king at bugis area dere...end up not enuff space..so we decided to go to qiji at bugis..nvr went there b4..so first time..me n e rest ordered food first cuz kak ctar n abg zee went to park his car... keke...when both of em arrived,we hv finish eating liao..keke...=P kak ctar came back wif a plastic bag..din noe wat it was actuali..den she open e bag..it was a cake..she bought it to celebrate my burfday..=) so sweet of her..=)it was a veri nice cake...LOVE MY COZINS SO MUCH...=) aft eating..we all had to get down to business..to discuss abt e video thingy...so yah..we decided to go to west coast...haha..all of us took abg zee car..n it was kinda funny.. cuz..imagine 9 of us..in a car..hMmmMm...kinda impossible actuali..but..haha...we made it possible..one end up lying down lyk superman on top of kak ayu,me,kak nurul for abt 15 mins..? long huh..?well..yah..so at west coast..started to dicuss abt e stiff tat we nid to discuss...took photo b4 e dicussion..took photo in between discussion..took photo aft dicussion...hahas...tats our job..taking piczZ...=)we juz love to take pic..=) aft tat ard 8pluz..we went to eat dinner..again..everone in e car...!!keke...but abg zee din join us aft sending us dere..cuz he had sth on..over dere,we met up wif abg dali n kak siti..ate dinner till abt 10pluzZ...wanted to overnite at kak ayu place..but..u noe parents..yah..so din..=(..hmMmm... "

Overall..i had a Super great day wif my cozins..=) love em so e much..thanks for everything cozins...=)

well..tats all for now..hv to slp..tmr going study...=)

b4 i end..tiz is my burfday cake by my cozins...=) nOt foRgeTtiNg mY weStwoOd fAmiLy..=) fOr thOsE wHo meSsAgEd mE iN e dAy..=) tHaNks aLot..=) iT mAdE mE smiLe all dAy..=) LovE u guYs tOo mY gOd fAmiLy n fRenS in wEsTwoOd...=) PiCzZ oF mE n My dEaRy cLasS iSh bELoW...=)
tHanKs JN0601D..=)
LovE u gUys aLwAys..=)
u guys rOxX...=)
thanks for making a difference on my burfday..=) hAhA...a great burfday celebration in skool..=)

reached skool earli..*as per normal..* hAhA..reached skool den got ppl say happy burfday liao..=)so e happy earli in e morning..=)e day went so nice n happy...got gifts from my anna galgal n nick, sal..=)*thanks u guys=)* aft BH lessoN..e class saNg mE a bUrfDaY sOnG..tWiCe..=) so e hApPy aCtuaLi cUz diN nOe iT'LL hApPeN..bUt hOnEsTly..kiNdA oF sHy aCtuaLi..bUt i reaLi LovE e pEePs iN mY cLaSs..=) hAd tO sTay bAcK afT BH leSsOn cUz oUr CA aSkeD tO...so yAh..wAs sHoCkeD bY mY CA..cUz sHe bRouGhT 2 cAkEs wiF hEr..dEn sHE aSk e buRfDay gaL tO cUt e cAkE..(tAts mE) so e pai seh sia..even thou its a normal cake..its special to my special day...(btw,e cake was made by a senior mom...)

heres's a pic of e cake...

tOoK cLaSs piC..=)*sO e HaPpY cUz toOk a cLasS piC oN mY bUrFdAy..=)*
hAd sUcH a gReaT buRfdAy tiZ yEaR..=) thAnkS fOr mAkiNg mE a hAPpY gurL..=)

wAkAkAzZ...=) afew more hours n i'll be turning 17..=)
*yeah* hoping tat tiz year burfday will be a betta n memorable one..a happy one..well..hoping... piCz wiF mY siSziEz...=)


hahahahahaha...=)

finalli e day tat hv tensing me up is over...!!my phase test is over..=)*yeAh*hAd 3 break downs today..=P*oOpsS*but so e happy tat its finally over..=)

"finally..it was turn..i got my own clinical nursing lecturer..was so e scared at first..so i started e procedure..forgot to cut e micropaul(spelling dun noe..=P) n take water for lubrication..=Phaha..so e scared..but managed to..=) had to redo 4 times sia..=P but over all...me did oK...=)hopefuli e results will be out soon..nid to noe how well i did e test..scared but anxious still...=P"

got e msg from my aisyah galgal tat sj won e championship title..=)*well done sj members...=)*

hAhA..coUntiNg dOwn tO 2 more days..=)

mY cOziNs...=)

LovE u gUys aLwAys..=)

smiles cozin..=)
*on e big day itself..=)* e nite b4 e big day...=) all haben slp..=P 1pluz in emorning already..hmMm... hMmmmM..cOziNs..goNnA tell u guys sth..*LOVE U GUYS LOADS*
*stiLL posiNg cOziNs..=) LovE u gUys..=)* *mE wiF mY cOziN..=) pOsiNg aLL e wAy mAn..=) sO gOt nTh tO dO...bUt aCtuaLi..LOADs of things to do..juz taking e time to take picz..(our hobby)* tOdAy..wOke uP 'so called' late bah..=P but..not late for sch..=)
was so e sleepy in e train..dun noe y but fely hot in e train..
oni to realise tat it was cold actuali..i was lyk e heater for both anna n jana..=P
*oOpS..haviNg fever..=P* got even sicker by e minute goes by..=P
sick sick..=P
slept through BH make up at lecture hall..=P
*yeAh..*going for red cross camp in august..=)

stayed back in skool til abt...4pluz 5?? to practice NG insertion n feeding...=P

hMmm..tAts all i can say for toDay..=P

*counting down to 4 more days...=)* *SmiLes cOziNz=)* tOdAy..hAd a sUper long day..=) cuz today was my kak ayu engagement day..
had loads of fun actuali..
took super loads of picz wif my deary cozins..=)
slpt late e previous nite..ard 1pluz?aft taking so many e piczZ..=)
*guess it runs in our blood..?tat we look taking piczZ??*
juz sae e word.."ppl squeezE..."...n u'll c wats our reactions..=)
wakakazz...Juz love my cozins so much..=)
got nth else to say but..LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH..
dun want e spirits tat we have to fade away...
cuz i love u guys so so much..=)

b4 e day ended...my kak ayu shocked me..asked me to cut her cake as a burfday celebration..
even thou cant celebrate wif em..e few mins of burfday for me means alot to me...
love u guys so much..=) juz love em so so much..!!argh..!!juz cant help loving em..=)
keke...well...next friday will be my day..=)

hmMmm..
hv to go to slp rite now..so e sleepy n tired...
hmMmm..happy engagement day kak ayu...=)

*gdnitez ppl...=)* *me wif my deary kak aYu..=)* cHeEsE cOziNs..=)


*me wif my dear kak cTaR..=)*
*in black n white..=)*
[we cozins rox..=)]




CoZinS...=)
*aBg maLeK,kAk aYu,mE,oNe,kAk cTaR,aBg mAmaL,cT*
[hAviNg LoaDs oF fUn b4 sLpiNg..=)takinG piCzZ...=)]
mE wiF mY cOziNs..=)
*aBg maLeK,kaK aYu,Me,oNe,aBg mAmaL,cT*

*yEaH..hapPy..bUt..=P*

Friday, August 11, 2006 7:46 PM / 1st Story

yeaH..=)

gOtTeN bAck mY bEhAviOuraL sCiEncE tEsT rEsuLts..=)
hAhA..gOtTeN A..=)42..=)
suPeR hApPy..bUt...nOt sO hApPy cUz i diD sEt gOaLs fOr mYseLf..buT diN rEaCh e GoaLs...
bUt aT lEaSt i nOE tAt i cAn stUdY*hAhA..fiNaLi i wAnNa sTuDy..=P*
weLL..wAnNa heLp mY fReNs tO dO bEtTa.cUz i dUn wAnT aniOne tO lEaVe mY cLasS..=(
i wAnT tO c aLL nExT yEaR..wAnNa gRaduAte tOgEthER tOo..=)
So..*jia yOu cLaSs D..=)*pLanNinG tO gUiDe aFeW oF mY fReNs tO dO weLL fOr tHeiR eXaM..
wAnt thEm tO dO weLL tOo oF cOz...=)
Muz cOnt tO dO weLL fOr e reSt oF thE teSt n eXamZ...=)*jiA yOu..=)*

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*mE wif mY gaLgaL aT eSpLanDe..=)*

Wednesday, August 09, 2006 10:50 PM / 1st Story

yeaH..!!=)tOdAy hAd sO mUch of fun..=)
went to watch fast n furious9tokyo drift) wif nick n galgal..=)
den went to take neoprints..=)

NaTionaL dAy eVe..=)

Tuesday, August 08, 2006 3:35 PM / 1st Story

hmMm..tOdAy'S lesSoN wAs cAnceLLeD..=)
*yeAh*
haHa..kind of gd actuali..=) keke..

toOk afEw piCzZ toO..=)

wAtched alot of performance today..=) reali nice performance man..
lots of cool steps n shakes.. but over all...NICE performance by e different schools..=)

tMr nAtiOnaL dAy..=)
*yEaH*=)

tMr gOiNg oUt..=)*yEsH*

a sUpEr LoNg weEk..=P

Monday, August 07, 2006 5:12 PM / 1st Story

wakakazZzzZ..had a super long week actuali..a kinda of sway week..?
cuz..woke up late since tues till last fri..=P keke..
sat went to study in skool at first wif e guidance of 'Our teacher'..=)
managed to understand alotzZ..=) *yeaH*
went to GP to teach anna..=) studied till ard 8pm..keke...

sUn..=)
went to study actuali..had to guide afew of my frends..
started from 12 till 9pm..=P
*super long sia..=P*
teach till blood vessels boiled..=P
wakakazZz..reach hm late..=P
sHaLL uPLoaD e piC wiF mY gaLgaL oN aNotHeR dAy bAh...

mOn...=)
did e paper..wanted to score 45 and above..but dun tink can score tat high liao lah..=(
sad man..haizZ..mux get 40 n above...!!!muzZZzzZ...!!!!!!!!

*toO tireD tO wRiTe mOrE..sOrrY...*

Friday, August 04, 2006 8:49 PM / 1st Story

*sMiLezZ=)*

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*mE_fErYnN_aNnA*

sL=)

8:37 PM / 1st Story

*mE_aNnA_wAn_jH_5saL_aLviN*

[e gReaTeSt bAtcH oF sL..=)]

=P

Thursday, August 03, 2006 4:03 PM / 1st Story

wAh...!
been such a bzi n long week..=P
had alot to study actuali..cuz tiz comin monday is my first test for behavioural science..=P
hopefuli i'll do well..=) cuz i wanna do well of coz..=)
next week is national day wee..=) but kinda sad cuz national day wun be held at the national stadium animore..=(had so much of memories dere..but..nvm..Singapore will always be my home town..=) *love singapore*

have two projects to hand in..=P one on e 11th..de other one on 31st..=P *haben start sia..*

haizZ..reali worried abt my phase test on e 16th..=P NG insertion n feeding sia..=P haizZ.. hopefuli i wun hv another nervous break down sia..=P reali scared..

rYn rYn rEen

Tuesday, August 01, 2006 11:20 AM / 1st Story

rYn..rEeN..rYn..
iNa..iNa...
wat can i exactly sae abt life now?
going better physically.. mentally...?not so sure..still recovering i guess..
but..its recovering..tats a gd sign actauli..

been through alot tiz week..n my adeq juz reminded me tat tiz coming sat is the PN..=P
*shit man* i havent got anithink prepared for their item..
reali shit man..!!(hv to come up wif an item asap sia....)
dun reali noe how to..but..i'll hv to crack my brain once again..

i mean e theme is e wild or sth...wild..?wild..? wat can i eva think of abt abt..?
being wild..?my juniors being wild..?possible but hard to get them to show 100%...
well..we'll see wat i can actuali come up wif...>

did a study session wif sum ppl.. *taught by marcus..*
studied till abt 6pluzZ..*so tired sia* reach hm abt 9..? managed to do abit of revision.. half way doing, watching my chinese show..a unexpected phone call was received.. haha.. nvr expected to get e call..so shock..but..yah..tok for a short while..den asked me to do my revision..=P so yah..

wat more can i sae abt ytr??hmMmm..dun reali noe..but.. brain craking so hard...

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